goodnight everyoneeeee or good morning/day/whatever
btw i'm okay
i've just had a rough afternoon at the equestrian vaulting session, i tried to mount onto the horse at canter (which i did with no help, my sister who needed to help went panic mode which i can relate to) and i was hanging off the horse while he was cantering, but i pulled myself upright thankfully
but then while on him i cried =] i assume it was a sort of... trauma response (dunno if "trauma" is going too far) because i've had a couple horses buck me off, one of them being verryy scary and bad where i sort of went flying

iddkdkkdkdkdk i just don't want to fall under the horses hooves and get trampledd cuz if i didn't have the strength to pull myself up i would've gone into horse's hooves zone

ANYWAYSSS enough of mah rant hehe