NOTICE- im leaving for a bit-
I'll be gone for a week or two.
I need to do things that are hard emotionally irl in order to get better and i cant have another school year like the last. I was hoping to do it over the summer but i screwed up and had to do half a year of AP course over the summer instead which took away a lot of my will. and lately all my problems have been getting worse again and i need to admit that it will not be a better time later. I'm going to leave medi, i need to give myself permission-frankly force myself- to actually focus on what I need to do and not the needs of other people(. which no one else was making me do im just way too empathetic) and telling people about it/ giving myself a deadline will probably help me achieve it.
I have no intention of leaving forever! I just know that doing this will help me even here.( maybe i can even finish the wips i have ;-;) but i can't really do it if i dont have some sort of motivation, and certainly not if im busy trying to overextend myself. I know the last time I swore myself to something hard with other people, it worked in a way i didnt think it could, and i hope that will happen again. in the mean time please take care of yourselves <3 Ill miss yall a lot even though it's not long. and wish me luck!
ill talk sooner than the deadline if i get it done quicker somehow or if something really bad happens , sollemnly swear
and if you have me friended somewhere else you can send a message abt whatever there, thats alright ^^ i just know that if i stay on medi specifically I'll keep running into things that i cant handle atm and i will not have enough focus
I'll stay around for about two hours after i post this and then sign out. I wish y'all good luck with the start of your school year and other personal issue s that ik a lot of people were dealing with. hope this doesnt make it worse- please just know im trying to improve and this isnt because of anyone specifically but mainly just because ive been dodging the issue for like 3 years now, and it'll be a ok! its just a step away i need to take. thank youuu
I need to do things that are hard emotionally irl in order to get better and i cant have another school year like the last. I was hoping to do it over the summer but i screwed up and had to do half a year of AP course over the summer instead which took away a lot of my will. and lately all my problems have been getting worse again and i need to admit that it will not be a better time later. I'm going to leave medi, i need to give myself permission-frankly force myself- to actually focus on what I need to do and not the needs of other people(. which no one else was making me do im just way too empathetic) and telling people about it/ giving myself a deadline will probably help me achieve it.
I have no intention of leaving forever! I just know that doing this will help me even here.( maybe i can even finish the wips i have ;-;) but i can't really do it if i dont have some sort of motivation, and certainly not if im busy trying to overextend myself. I know the last time I swore myself to something hard with other people, it worked in a way i didnt think it could, and i hope that will happen again. in the mean time please take care of yourselves <3 Ill miss yall a lot even though it's not long. and wish me luck!
ill talk sooner than the deadline if i get it done quicker somehow or if something really bad happens , sollemnly swear
and if you have me friended somewhere else you can send a message abt whatever there, thats alright ^^ i just know that if i stay on medi specifically I'll keep running into things that i cant handle atm and i will not have enough focus
I'll stay around for about two hours after i post this and then sign out. I wish y'all good luck with the start of your school year and other personal issue s that ik a lot of people were dealing with. hope this doesnt make it worse- please just know im trying to improve and this isnt because of anyone specifically but mainly just because ive been dodging the issue for like 3 years now, and it'll be a ok! its just a step away i need to take. thank youuu
