rant/vent? idk i dont really do this...
hey guys, been a bit down lately and my mum's not been too nice. She confuses me, sometimes she acts like a kind and normal parent (usually when we're in public or with friends) and then other times she flips out over the littlest things. some of the kind words she's said to me recently
"I'll send you to a mental hospital" (when i told her i was a member of the LGBTQ+ community)
"You'll kill me one day" (when i tried to talk to her about 'too late in the evening')
"I'm your mother i can do what i want" (when i asked her to respect my privacy)
"you just want to get rid of me don't you" (when i was too tired to watch a movie)
"you are such an ungrateful brat" (when i asked for a five dollar hair cut)
"I do everything for you" (sometime in an argument i don't remember)
"I had it worse" (When i talk to her about this whole thing im typing rn)
"Can you let go of the past" (when i recounted a time where she screamed at me for half and hour over 'losing' her pliers until i begged her to stop. turns out she misplaced it, she never apologized)
Now don't get me wrong im not an angel, far from it in fact. i can very much be in the wrong. and i apologize for that.
I find myself counting the days until i can move out, and just praying she doesn't take it too far. she's threatened to put cameras in my room if i didn't "obey" her, but i don't know what that even means at this point.
She seems to have a hold on every aspect of my life, she reads my texts, looks at my photos, always asks what i'm doing, where im going, every school assignment ever (this is a good thing but she'll take it too far and won't let me handle them on my own, like im 15, the only thing she doesn't know about is that i use this website, and if she found out, she would probably take my laptop away forever. she thinks im asleep right now which is the only way i can write this.
Every adult i've told just says "you're overreacting" "she loves you" "all teenagers think like this" and i feel so trapped, like there's no way to get out. She's never hit me but she's threatened too, and i feel like i cant get anyone to listen to me because i don't have 'tangeble' proof. but then i wonder if maybe i am overreacting. well thats all i got, i probably forgot some other stuff, but yeah. the adults are probably right, i am overreacting.
"I'll send you to a mental hospital" (when i told her i was a member of the LGBTQ+ community)
"You'll kill me one day" (when i tried to talk to her about 'too late in the evening')
"I'm your mother i can do what i want" (when i asked her to respect my privacy)
"you just want to get rid of me don't you" (when i was too tired to watch a movie)
"you are such an ungrateful brat" (when i asked for a five dollar hair cut)
"I do everything for you" (sometime in an argument i don't remember)
"I had it worse" (When i talk to her about this whole thing im typing rn)
"Can you let go of the past" (when i recounted a time where she screamed at me for half and hour over 'losing' her pliers until i begged her to stop. turns out she misplaced it, she never apologized)
Now don't get me wrong im not an angel, far from it in fact. i can very much be in the wrong. and i apologize for that.
I find myself counting the days until i can move out, and just praying she doesn't take it too far. she's threatened to put cameras in my room if i didn't "obey" her, but i don't know what that even means at this point.
She seems to have a hold on every aspect of my life, she reads my texts, looks at my photos, always asks what i'm doing, where im going, every school assignment ever (this is a good thing but she'll take it too far and won't let me handle them on my own, like im 15, the only thing she doesn't know about is that i use this website, and if she found out, she would probably take my laptop away forever. she thinks im asleep right now which is the only way i can write this.
Every adult i've told just says "you're overreacting" "she loves you" "all teenagers think like this" and i feel so trapped, like there's no way to get out. She's never hit me but she's threatened too, and i feel like i cant get anyone to listen to me because i don't have 'tangeble' proof. but then i wonder if maybe i am overreacting. well thats all i got, i probably forgot some other stuff, but yeah. the adults are probably right, i am overreacting.
