Heyo guys,
Okay, I’m not the type to add fluff so I’ll just say it. I’m leaving medi. I know this seems a little out of left field, but this isn’t a spur of the moment decision. It’s one that I have been thinking about for a weeks now. The main reason is; grades. I got too focused on art and my grades started dropping. I just have too much on my plate. I don’t pay attention in class because I’m too busy drawing. I get too focused on the fact that I haven’t uploaded in days because my art takes so long. I think everyone will forget me and such. Which leads to stress, and art was my way of coping with stress. My original solution to this was to just take a break, but that just doesn’t work for me. I feel the pressure of coming back. My parents are another reason. They are too close to finding out that I have an account on this website, and if they find out I don’t know what they will do. So it’s safer to just delete it altogether. This won’t be my last time on the internet though. I’ll still be out there. Maybe one day I’ll come back who knows. I do know that this won’t be the last you see of me. So I know how selfish this sounds but think of this as my graduation.
To my friends: I’m so sorry about this, I know this is selfish I have a bad habit of bottling emotions and never telling anyone anything. To help make it up to you guys a little I’ll be taking some final requests (no nsfw, link your oc, normal rules). Again I’m very sorry about this and I hope you can understand.
In regards to my account; I’m not sure if I will delete it or not. I’ll figure that out when the time comes.
From the bottom of my heart thank you to everyone who followed me or liked my art. I know it isn’t that great and I’m still working on it but you all kept me going. And too everyone who I didn’t get to talk to much or have the pleasure of knowing, I’m sorry. I wish you all luck in your future endeavors.
Firebull
No reposting/reusing my art, even with credit.
- Digital art
- People
- Backgrounds
This is a concept sketch for my friends birthday gift (I needed to figure out the outfits) I spent like 3 or 4 hours on em so I thought I might as well show ya (especially since I don't have anything else rn) I actually like these outfits.
I wont post my friends birthday gift because it's personal, please respect that. (The only reason I posted the other one was because my friend told me too.)
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> Firebull You're welcome! Heh I knew it 🌚🌝
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> ☹︎☏𝔹𝕩𝕓𝕖𝕪☏☹︎|♥Roman ahh thank you! and yeah it is set in a futuristic/zombie apocalypse
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WHAT THE HECK THEY LOOK SO COOOOOOOLLLLL!! They give me zombie apocalypse vibes and future-y for some reason-
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> ali Thank you :]
Being an artist is like sitting there for an hour in silence drawing because your music finished and you didn’t realize and now its 6 pm and all your schoolwork is due tomorrow but you were to focused to realize it and now you have to cook dinner because you didn’t realize you haven’t eaten for over 7 hours and you still have to study for a biology test that you have tomorrow because you forgot about it because your weren’t paying attention because you were drawing and you need to get your grades up before they kick you out of the program and by the time you finish all your homework it’ll be when school starts the next day and it’s time to do your quarter test in math because the teacher messed up and.. oh wait its 7 pm.
Not that I would know anything like that- (no joke i actually thought it was 6 pm, and its almost 7:30)
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> ᯽ haha ive found one of my kind :0
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Omg I didn’t know other people sat in silence with their headphones on for no reason because their music stopped like 20 minutes ago too lol—
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> Firebull Time never existed-
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> ☹︎☏𝔹𝕩𝕓𝕖𝕪☏☹︎|𓆏Roman ok now i gotta study
Here's like a paragraph of me complaining about buying cake (This is very sarcastic haha)
I went to the store today (by myself) to buy cake mix (Idk i just wanted cake dude.)
I thought I broke the self checkout, turns out it was out of paper- (it was my first time using a self check-out because I usually go to the cashier)
then after I got my receipt I grabbed my bag and stepped to the side to make sure i had the right money. as i was doing that i heard one of the employees say to another employee "Does that boy need help?"(I know she was talking about me because I was the only kid there) LiKe lAdY i kNoW I lOOk 12 bUt I cAn CouNT oKaY? (aLsO iM a hUgE mAn oKaY?)
heres what the cake looks like when i finished baking it. (I drew a hand on it but it wouldn't let me upload it cuz the file size was too big, also i baked it all by myself are you proud of me :D)
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> Halo uh i gotta retake a chem test now-
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> Firebull Nvm just go and stop those insane people from pulling their teeth out of each other
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> Firebull Well I hope you are happy ^^ btw whatever you do don't go to the gc 😅
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> Firebull Ayyyy, pogchamp!
working on a little something, might get it done today or tomorrow :]
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> ÐêåÐ^rð§ê§^{kiri lmao- thank you it was kinda weird to draw a hand in this position haha
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* insert me praising the hand god *
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> ☹︎☏𝔹𝕩𝕓𝕖𝕪☏☹︎|𓆏Roman Thank you :]
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Oooooooohhhhhhh that's a good hand mi amigo
Thank you guys sooo much :D! here i made a poll to see what i should do to say thanks (It was my first time so i had no idea what i was doing)
https://pollsgo.com/poll?p=WiPf9Ei
Also heres a drawing i made ignore the bad hands and weird background (I rendered it wrong ;-;)
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> bAgel-is-dead thanks man :]
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yoo, congrats!!
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> MochiiNiko Thanks lad :D
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congrats! >:D
I always see cool artists use an odd combination of colors you wouldn't normally expect, and it turns out well! This was my attempt at using weird colors. It wasn't good enough for me to post but i still wanted to show it haha.
this is very different from my usual style so it was a little odd but it was fun :] (i think it turned out okay!)
I was going for a bit of an abstract/ crazy vibe. like you can see whats happening but you can't fully understand it.
its a little edgy but whatever-
I've been lying to you all, my cat is not gray, but in fact orange. (I mainly did this so he would fit the color scheme of my new banner haha) I hope you all can forgive me for this travesty.
Also the first image is from like 7 months ago. so it looks like SHI-
Cat reveal pog! Honestly i just wanted an excuse to show off fuzzy friend :D! he's six years old and a doofus.
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> Firebull Much floof, much yes.
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> Flair ye he's floof. also NO HES MINE HES SITTING RIGHT NEXT TO ME >:00000000 I CALLED DIBS SIX YEARS AGO
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:0 Fluffy!!!!!!! I love him! He is mine now UwU I have the adoption papers signed.
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he's sleeping on the floor next to me rn, he's so cute
I'm not feeling so well, its probably from stress though so ill be okay in a few days. (it came from school, home, and here)
Im still working on drawings they're just taking a while
I went outside today, and as we were chilling in the woods I took some pictures. They're good for reference
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> Firebull And lolli will credit of course.
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> Lollipwap If you want to you can :D!
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It makes lolli want to use the picture (◕∆◕) As reference though.
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> Firebull Np! (Oh, l o l, I don't have any woodsy area's nearby)
Hey guys. I've been in a bit of a pickle lately. I've been focusing on art primarily and not balancing my schedule. I know it seems to you all that I post every two to three days and disappear. For me however, i spend all my free time drawing. Most of the time it's NOT my free time. During class I'm usually drawing. My grades, of course, have suffered from this. Even my teachers are getting concerned why their B student is failing.
I try to put as much detail as I can into my art (I'm working on detailed backgrounds) and I am BARELY making that 2-3 day window. I see so many good artists post daily and I don't know how they do it honesty. I'm not really into posting WIPs or anything like that. I personally prefer quality over quantity, and that's what I've been aiming for (I hope you guys like it too). Though I feel like I'll be forgotten unless I post frequently. This drawing, for example, that i just used to demonstrate my predicament, took me 45 minutes.
Art is supposed to be an outlet for my feelings and a way for me to be creative, however it's currently stressing me out. Especially since there is A LOT going on in my life right now. My mum isn't getting any better, and there are plenty of other things no one wants to hear me ramble about. I've talked about going on breaks before but i've never really committed to one. Again referring back to the whole "being forgotten" thing. I also have a fear of getting worse if I take the day off.
My conclusion is to just post as much as I can, which won't be very often, or as often as I used too. (I used to post DAILY can you believe that?!?!) Maybe once a week, maybe less (I want to keep my page as quality over quantity as possible). BUT I'm definitely still here, and when the summer comes I'll be able to post more. Wow does it feel good to explain what's going on. Someone might read this, but I feels as if I'm talking to a void, I don't know (haha I'm tired or something.) If anyone has any advice please do tell me in the comments, enjoy the doodle mates.
Also before I go THANK YOU FOR 100 FOLLOWERS HOLY-
I will draw a thank you picture eventually.. I'm pretty backed up right now... (also to Lesbian Sheep Supremacy guys- sorry the drawing's taking so long, I'm working on it, its just a slow process...)
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> bAgel-is-dead Ahh thanks man. I'll try to do that. I get it, I was also shy (still kinda am but whatever-) You're art's cool too :D!! (also sorry for the late response i went to bed)
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it might be better for you to prioritize sorting the other stuff out first, get a working schedule going then see how you can fit art into that schedule without overloading yourself. sorry I don't comment often, i'm shy af on the internet, I'm forcing myself to be more sociable so hi, your art's really cool btw :')
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> Kosai Thanks lad, I'll give it a whirl
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I think you should do other stuff then do your art later, thats what I do after I finish I draw, sometimes I draw for a couple of hours and then do other stuff, sometimes I draw for a whole day, depending on how much I'm needed around the house
I WILL GRAB THE BANANA GUN!!!! >:0000
It's really cool! so is the artist! go support them :D!
Me and Flair will cry if this doesn't level up! (this is a t h r e a t)
https://medibang.com/picture/012103080905079690018556518/
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> Firebull Thk u
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> Kosai okayyyyy.... *lowers gun*
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There I did it, now pls put the banana gun down 😅
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> ☏𝔹𝕩𝕓𝕖𝕪☏|𓆉Roman With the level of speech you've portrayed, I'm not surprised. :]
https://medibang.com/author/19639502/
here she is! go follow her. NOW. SHE MAKES GOOD ART. I AM HOLDING A BANANA TO YOU. (seriously tho go follow her :D)
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> Firebull POGCHAMP!
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> Flair POGGGG
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> Firebull (Lol it's ok! :D)
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> Firebull CHILDREN WITH BANANA GUNS POG!
I hate the word talented. I cant be the only one. It just seems whenever anyone says "you're so talented" (this can apply to anything, im sorry im not trying to toot my own horn) it's meant to be a compliment, but it doesn't feel that way. I seems like they ignore all the hard work i put into the thing, and just chalk it up to so called "talent". I didn't spend 6 y e a r s practicing and improving at art just to be told "you have talent". No. it's not talent. Its hard work.
when they say "oh i could never do that!" it seems as an excuse to not try, it seems lazy.
i used to be like them, thinking "i could never." and its like that in the beginning. they gave up, i continued (im hella stubborn haha) THAT'S the difference between us.
Its not TALENT there's no such thing. sure we all have different hobbies and interests, but 'talent' is not a thing. in conclusion, talent is just work other people don't see.
okay im done. i was hella pissed about that (i was just in an argument with one of my relatives haha). Also, if i sounded like i was bragging im sorry. I'm not very good and i have soooo much to improve on, but in my family there arent many artists, its just me.
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god honestly you are so right, especially about the excuses part
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w o r d
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i honestly cant agree more
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sorry the third part is a bit repetitive, i didn't bother rereading it haha
I doodled/designed this at dinner, i haven't done traditional in a while so take this c o n t e n t (working on a drawing tho :])
I created a cute story behind this too; basically a lesbian couple and their cute hyperactive son live here :D! They live in a corner townhouse (there's a small lot next to it so their shed was built there) in the UK. One of the brides built a swing for her son to swing on! they keep his toys in their shed and live a nice quiet life!
bruh i just realized i forgot to sign it uhhhh...
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> Firebull H o u s e
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> ☏𝔹𝕩𝕓𝕖𝕪☏|𓆉Roman H o u s e
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H o u s e
I have 7 sketches for a comic book cover (its a gift for my friend) and I LITERALLY cannot come up with one i like, bRuuuuUuUUuUhhhh
I tried going to her page but it lead to a 404. If she makes a new account please tell me!
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WHAT!?!?!?!? NOOOO!!!!!!!! I.... Need some time.... Alone
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> Pat me too :(
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No wonder I lost a follower :< Man I hope she comes back
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> Leieryx yeah me too
add another one to the pile
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Orange, Turquoise, and Lavender UwU
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c o r a l
Tortellini ABSOLUTELY deserves level four if you're going to up THESE to level four.
*I'm not attacking the artists or their work in any way, they have good art, I'm only commenting on Medi's unfair treatment of leveling up.
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> MochiiNiko yes she does, why you gotta be like this Medi
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gosh darnit medi >:[ and yes, tortellini truly deserves a rank
heyo, since art blocks stopped me from drawing people im trying to work on my backgrounds, but they don't look right :/. any advice?
I know im late im sorrrryyy
had a rough day, but thought i should sayyy.... WHATTTT HOW DID THIS HAPPEN!?!?!? THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO LIKED MY PIECE!! (Especially Flair and Ami :DDDD)
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> 𝕒𝕞𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕒|✪ᖇOᗰᗩᑎ :0 oh no
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> Firebull Time to become diabetic Diabetes runs on my mom's side of the fam so-
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> 𝕒𝕞𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕒|✪ᖇOᗰᗩᑎ YES THE CAKES!
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> Firebull I’ll bring the stupidity and over 122368000887665321123567890000000008 cakes-
hey guys, been a bit down lately and my mum's not been too nice. She confuses me, sometimes she acts like a kind and normal parent (usually when we're in public or with friends) and then other times she flips out over the littlest things. some of the kind words she's said to me recently
"I'll send you to a mental hospital" (when i told her i was a member of the LGBTQ+ community)
"You'll kill me one day" (when i tried to talk to her about 'too late in the evening')
"I'm your mother i can do what i want" (when i asked her to respect my privacy)
"you just want to get rid of me don't you" (when i was too tired to watch a movie)
"you are such an ungrateful brat" (when i asked for a five dollar hair cut)
"I do everything for you" (sometime in an argument i don't remember)
"I had it worse" (When i talk to her about this whole thing im typing rn)
"Can you let go of the past" (when i recounted a time where she screamed at me for half and hour over 'losing' her pliers until i begged her to stop. turns out she misplaced it, she never apologized)
Now don't get me wrong im not an angel, far from it in fact. i can very much be in the wrong. and i apologize for that.
I find myself counting the days until i can move out, and just praying she doesn't take it too far. she's threatened to put cameras in my room if i didn't "obey" her, but i don't know what that even means at this point.
She seems to have a hold on every aspect of my life, she reads my texts, looks at my photos, always asks what i'm doing, where im going, every school assignment ever (this is a good thing but she'll take it too far and won't let me handle them on my own, like im 15, the only thing she doesn't know about is that i use this website, and if she found out, she would probably take my laptop away forever. she thinks im asleep right now which is the only way i can write this.
Every adult i've told just says "you're overreacting" "she loves you" "all teenagers think like this" and i feel so trapped, like there's no way to get out. She's never hit me but she's threatened too, and i feel like i cant get anyone to listen to me because i don't have 'tangeble' proof. but then i wonder if maybe i am overreacting. well thats all i got, i probably forgot some other stuff, but yeah. the adults are probably right, i am overreacting.
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> Leieryx Thank you, I'll be honest i don't know how to respond, but thank you.
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and shoot i typed over 1000 characters again i need to stop doing that ^^;
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Especially if there was any way you could invalidate what that other person was saying about them. And the stereotype of teenagers is really prevalent- But that doesn't mean they're right in acting on that. Your parent should not make you feel trapped. I hope someone listens to you, irl. You deserve it. idk i had a lot to say ~ Yeah i hope it gets better, in whatever way that means, and please feel free to rant about it- sometimes its the best for your brain to not hold on to all of it.
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No, that's not right.. A parent from any religious denomination, or any belief, should at least be able to talk with you about how you feel- and should not suggest you're insane. No parent should call you a brat either- and if any of this happens, which sometimes when you're angry it does, you should apologize. Abuse is abuse. No good kind, no lesser kind. And that's... what this sounds like. Any form of discipline isn't meant to devalue you as a person. As far as the adults- people who know your mom as an adult-friend (Or just get the idea of her being a chill parent, especially since you say she puts on a facade) will be unlikely to change that idea. It'd be hard to hear that a friend of yours was acting like this. You wouldn't want to believe it.
I was gonna add people to them, but i got lazy
The first two are just paintings, but the last one is concept art for my friends video game
Sorry about the weird angle the guitar is reflective and i didn't want to show my face
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> °•.♤ՏOᖴTᗪ尺卂山|几ᘜ♤.•° ohhhh poor guitar lmao
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> Firebull Nope, i was learning but i got bored and now i ignore my poor guitar 😅
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> °•.♤ՏOᖴTᗪ尺卂山|几ᘜ♤.•° ooooo nice! i know you don't use it, but do you know how to play?
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I have a guitar too :D! But i don't use it lol
yes i am aware i talked about "talking about your feelings" twice i was too lazy to redo it-
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> 🌙💫amellllia💫🌙 indeed
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> Firebull We all know how dumb we are-
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> 🌙💫amellllia💫🌙 ooh i'm gonna make him with us being dumb in the front or something-
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> Firebull Same I'm gonna make him with his fam
We call her Derpy
Happy Valentines btw :D
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> 🌙💫amellllia💫🌙 Indeed
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> Firebull It was so worth it
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> 🌙💫amellllia💫🌙 Ikr (she took so long to build istg)
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She is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. She should be a model oml I'm jealous of her looks-
Go check them out! They make such good art, it criminal that they have so little followers!
https://medibang.com/author/19040555/
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> 🌙💫amellllia💫🌙 Lmao, I think i got all my anger/bossiness out in pre school, now i stay quiet in school and go on crazy adventures when i get home. Then again, i am like the tired big brother when we adventure so idk. something to think about hmmmmmm. anyway goodnight :D
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> Firebull HAHA, what the heck you sound like you would be my best friend cause we were both bossy and wanted to rule. My mom told me that once when I was three she called me by a new nickname I think it was like Mell or something and I told her not to call me that and to call me by my other two nicknames. I always told ppl what to do like once I was gonna take a nap and I told EVERYONE to turn off all the lights and I pointed to the sun and said “turn off that one too” like that was possible- Anyways my iPad is about to die so I gtg good night
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> 🌙💫amellllia💫🌙 Lmao, i like REALLY liked those blocks (I've always been a builder so that was why I enjoyed them so much. I actually still build things, i collect spare parts and create something else outta them. This may sound weird but i've built a bow out of popsicle sticks and it like works! idk how man. I'm currently building a treehouse) I think one day i decided to build a pirate ship out of them, and i actually was making progress until i ran out of blocks. man i was weird. Pretty sure I was working when some of my friends came over. They asked to help, and i said yes. then i turned into their captain and took over neighboring play areas. then i got power hungry and was sent to time out. weird times..
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> Firebull PFFT, I always had trouble sleeping (still do) but I think I still would but Idk mine were blue and had a white square in the middle. Unrelated but I had a friend that had a bunch of naked dolls and would take the clothes off the ones at daycare and we would make playdough ones....she was pretty weird but so am I so Plus we were little so ya know
Idk i'm bored, gimme that inspiration, nOW >:O
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> 🌙💫amellllia💫🌙 same bro that's the dream, oh and goodnight (again)
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> Firebull I hope mine gets better
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> 🌙💫amellllia💫🌙 man. you've inspired me to work on my handwriting. WE WILL HAVE THE BEST HANDWRITING SOON! OTHER MORTALS WILL BE JEALOUS OF OUR FANCY ESSAYS! TheY wiLL bOw dOwN tO uS!!!
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> Firebull Honestly, I just have ugly handwriting I try to cover it up when the paper is on my desk during a test but other than that I write on my lap using my computer as a hard surface or it's in a book.
BRo like three of my pieces are at level two wHaT??? Thank you SOOO much!!!!
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> Danizinha Thank you!!!
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WOW !!! CONGRATULATİONS !!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉 I hope your drawings will be level 4 and 5 !!!
I'll probably be gone for a few days, by gone I mean not posting art i'll still interact and comment!
I've been pretty stressed lately and I have been pushing myself to draw all the time. My art takes around 3-5 hours per piece so i've basically been drawing in every free second I have. It's like a never ending cycle- I push myself to draw, I draw, then color and shade, finish a drawing, then not being happy with the piece because I pushed myself so hard (and art block yay), then feeling like I'm not improving unless I'm drawing, then not wanting to take a break because I feel like my art will get worse, then drawing again. I try to relax don't get me wrong, but I'm surrounded by such talented artists and I feel like I'm being left behind. Not to mention that my family life isn't the best (thanks mum and dad JUST LET ME SEE A DOCTOR ISTG) and I escape and vent through art. The only other thing I do is adventure with my friends (which we can't do very often because of the snow and icy weather) and that can get very dangerous i'll just say- Not to mention I'm behind on school and my grades have been paying for it. So I basically spend all my time indoors without seeing any of my friends (bad for my extroverted self) bUt anyway thats my vent.
Basically I need to catch up on school .-.
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> Firebull TwT Thanks you-- **Hugs hugs**
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> Lollipwap Aww join me in my break! *hugs hugs*
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Lolli feels what firebull is in right now
I'm super late but, It's okay I accept your decision and that's what matter and I will never forget you, I'll miss you and thank you for being a wonderful friend, and I hope life treats you well, I just hope that you are happy even tho I'm super late and stuff, I'm sorry I'm getting a bit sentimental, I'm so stupid what matter is you are happy with your decision and you aren't being selfish, we were just a bit too blind... I'm not going to say bye but I'll say this! I'll see you in wonderland (if you want to know what it means it's just saying that I'll see you later in the future when times get better)
i'm late again, but anyway... totally understandable, I personally think it's ok to be selfish when it comes to stuff like this. we didn't get to chat much but I'll miss you and your art :') I wish you luck on your grades and classes, take care, dude
> ali-chi I'll miss you too!
> Ɛɾì Thank you Ill miss you too!