hope y'all are doing well

*sadness ahead*








i'm just slightly sick of everything
i'm tired of having to get this and that done
and i'm just physically tired in general
and my hormones are building up again , making me so easily upset and angry
like why can't i have my period once a month instead of one every two months amd let out my stupid hormones
i need to exercise , stretch , do schoolwork , do this and that , but i don't want to , i'm just tired
why can't things be easier
why can't i socialize with people without completely embarrassing myself , it's extremely hard even online
when i try to talk to cool people on here , they always just ignore me and i feel like they're so uncomfortable with me around
even when i did try to talk to someone , all i got was them acting defensive or offended even , like jeez why are people so easily offended by me , i'm so terrible at talking to people it's so annoying
i'm too afraid to act even slightly humorous in case of offending or angering the person
and i see everyone else acting like themselves and they get all good attention
it just sucks
when someone finally likes me it always wears off , they always end up changing their mind , it never lasts because i just suck as a person in general
i can't be myself because i know i'm just gonna mess up again and again and again
i hate my personality
i always feel like i'm hiding
uugghhhhhhmmhhm