just a ventity-vent-vent
i'll feel better eventually







body image problems coming to attack me againnnn~~
like bruh i'm trying so hard
exercising almost every day, stretching, plus the sports i do, ect ect
but nothing's working, i still look like a... fat thing
my face looks too chubby, and so does my body
like why is my body so... wide ? and chunky ? why am i STILL FAT after so long of exercising regularly ?
i get many compliments from people (my mum says that people come up to her and say that my performances in my sports look great, and i'm this, and i'm that), but.... i literally dont know why or how but i just can't agree
i still end up crying, and feeling insecure and ugly around everyone else
like why is my stupid brain so mean to me XD--
i know that i just need to stop being so hard on myself, think more positively, accept who i am, stop getting so upset of not doing everything i need to do that day, ect ect
but... it almost feels like i dont do any of those things because i hate myself too much, and that i don't quite... deserve those things
or maybe because i let out my frustration, sadness, and emotional pain on being mean to my body and mind, therefore i've built up a habit of that or something
so now i'm... stuck. cuz if i can't practice my self love and stuff, how am i going to ever improve ?
i'm just...

so jealous of other people and disappointed in myself.
=(

anywayyss have a nice day/night/avo, you didn't have to read this yknow