hah, im such a fuckin hypocrite :')
i always preach to my freinds that they should be honest in their relationships, and that its gunna help them grow as people.
but i cant even tell my boyfriend that im transmale. mind you, i live in a small, homophobic town, and i know for a fact that my boyfreind isnt execpting of gays. he doesnt think that marriage inbetween same-sex partners should be legal, and we have gotten into a couple agruments about it. he may not think its okay, but he doesnt go around attacking people like some of the kids at my school do. i really like him, and sure as hecc dont want to break up with him. but the situation is steadily getting worse... my boyfriend is a pretty closed off person, but his sister told their uncle that we were dating- and now most of his family knows. im the first person he has dated, and now they a l l want to meet me- and my parents want to meet them too(my parents dont know im trans either)-
so now they are planning stuff for everyone to meet, and im stressing out about it.
i also have school starting up soon, and i have to take two math classes, both before lunch. and im going track and field. im already in drama club, hopsitality club, FFA, and NHS. and i have to make sure to keep my GPA at 3.9, because im planning on going to college abroad.
i feel like im going to break under the pressure, but im expected to exceed my parents. I feel like i have to do all this stuff to have a happy life. but i feel like im going to do all this stuff, and struggle through it, just to end up a frikin failure.
but i cant even tell my boyfriend that im transmale. mind you, i live in a small, homophobic town, and i know for a fact that my boyfreind isnt execpting of gays. he doesnt think that marriage inbetween same-sex partners should be legal, and we have gotten into a couple agruments about it. he may not think its okay, but he doesnt go around attacking people like some of the kids at my school do. i really like him, and sure as hecc dont want to break up with him. but the situation is steadily getting worse... my boyfriend is a pretty closed off person, but his sister told their uncle that we were dating- and now most of his family knows. im the first person he has dated, and now they a l l want to meet me- and my parents want to meet them too(my parents dont know im trans either)-
so now they are planning stuff for everyone to meet, and im stressing out about it.
i also have school starting up soon, and i have to take two math classes, both before lunch. and im going track and field. im already in drama club, hopsitality club, FFA, and NHS. and i have to make sure to keep my GPA at 3.9, because im planning on going to college abroad.
i feel like im going to break under the pressure, but im expected to exceed my parents. I feel like i have to do all this stuff to have a happy life. but i feel like im going to do all this stuff, and struggle through it, just to end up a frikin failure.
