tw// sh suicide











i cant fucking do this anymore
im not a boy
i will never be a boy
and if any mother fucker says some dumb ass shit like "OH ULL BE A BOY ONE DAY"
YEAH ONE DAY
ONE DAY
I WANT TO BE ONE NOW
IDGAF IF U WANT ME TO LIVE
IM HERE FOR ME AND ONLY ME
I DONT WANNA FUCKING BE HERE
THERES NO FUCKING POINT ANYMORE I SHOULD JUST FUCKING DIE
I DONT DESERVE TO BREATHE
OH AND CADENCE MY "PERFECT SKIN" HAS UR FUCKING NAME CARVED INTO
MY "PERFECT SKIN" HAS SO MANY BRUISES THAT IVE GIVEN MYSELF
NOT ONCE HAVE I ACTUALLY GONE "today has been a good day" NOT ONCE HAVE I HAD A GOOD FUCKING DAY
IM FUCKING SUFFOCATING
IM DROWNING
I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE
i cant fucking take it anymore
but ill stay
i always stay
just to make them all smile
i wish i didnt have to
but
i do
i have to
just for u guys
im so sorry- im having so much trouble right now
everything is so overwhelming
im ok
im fine
thanks for asking
im not up to much
thanks for asking
i love you
no
not u
her
yeah
her
shes amazing
shes- so- amazing i love her so much
id kill for her
id kill her if i had too
tbh ill kill for anyone if i have to
but her- them- the two of them- god-
i fucking love them both-