legit here just so I didn't have to publish a work that really didn't need to be published
I don't vent often either so this is just hhhhh
but in all seriousness, I feel like the only part of me is work
I just finished a week-long project with several drawings that should've burnt me out but didn't
nice and all
but I came straight home after school and started drawing at around three
its nine rn
I've literally been drawing for almost six hours straight
and for as much as I draw, I don't feel like I've improved at all in the past six months
like yeah, maybe I understand facial structure more, and yeah, maybe I understand hands a little better, but I haven't really made any groundbreaking progress with my art
but whenever I don't draw, I feel like I'm not being productive enough and that I can do better
I want to take a break, but its almost like I can't at all
It's such a horrible feeling to have your life revolve around something that won't even make you successful or anything.
No, this isn't me saying goodbye to the platform, I'll still be here for a good while

ok thanks for listening to my TED talk









goddamnit cavetown, giving me feelings
haven't had those in years