1. All my friends either live far away or are close but really busy or are a boy and my family is conservative and doesn’t like it....
2.Like I feel so frustrated rn, I’m not sure who to talk to anymore because I’ve felt... idk... embarrassed about my existence? Like looking at myself in the mirror, I can’t believe I’m actually real. I’m a mess, tbh. I’m so awkward...
And my face is so expressive all the time it makes it clear sometimes I don’t feel the proper emotions expected of me, and it’s embarrassing
3. All throughout my life I’ve had random flashes of pain in or near my heart. It scares me more and more. Lastley ‘tis been so intense I’ll just be typing a message to a friend and it happens and I, for a moment, don’t expect to hit send. It’s scaring me.
And no, for those who think I should get it checked out... I think I know the problem. A lot of sodium and also the breast over my heart is heavy and lies directly over my heart. Also o stretch weirdly a lot. I need to do something about it, but I’m scared of doing it alone because in the past I tend to be made fun of