i have so much weight on my shoulders
thats why im staying
im staying for u guys
but im getting tired
i dont see an end to me hurting soon
and now that i have a future planned
a cat a dog a KID A FUCKING KID
im so fucking scared
im stressing out
im eating less
im drinking more
im hvaing sex just to numb everything
after i stopped
i thought i was finished with the whole sex just to forget thing
but i was wrong
so fucking wrong
im so sick
so sick
so sick


im sorry cadence this is too much for me