you dont have to read this, i just need to complain
and you also dont need to say anything, you guys have given me so much support and love on my vents and i know it's annoying when you give so much support and the person still complains about themselves. we all just need to vent every now and then even though we get plenty of love





i wish i was a lot smarter. like everyone else. the math schoolwork i'm doing is literally for grade 5's and i'm supposed to be in grade 6 or something (i'm homeschooled so that stuff is confusing for me). i feel so embarrassed at how forgetful i am, and how easily distracted i am, and how i have so trouble paying attention, i start panicking when i'm in public, i just.... wish i was better at everything. everyone else is so much better than me. so much better. and even when i was younger (i'm talking 7-11 yrs old, fortunately i've gotten better), i didnt even know how to walk properly. my feet were turned inwards. and dont get me started on talking, i SUCKED at that and i still have a trace of it. every single sentence i would be stuttering like the most nervous person in the world, and i hated it. i couldnt control my stammering. i'm just sooo... dumb. i cried in my room and hit my head multiple times. it's just what i do when i'm upset. it's a bad habit...