i feel so chatty and ranty =[ all the people i've been replying to/commenting to are probably like "erm when did i ask for a whole article" XD
haaaaa i'm lonely =D i need irl friends but the homeschool life has cons
and it feels like people just don't really want to talk to me, irl and online ;0; i wish i had a bff irl that i saw for more than 2 times a year -_- and the only friends i see regularly (although i wont be seeing those friends for over a month probably) aren't very close to me, and it feels like they don't really like that much either-- often times i feel like the third wheel too =I i see so many groups/pairs of friends who seem inseparable, who are always walking together, always sharing inside jokes ect, and i just... wish i had that, yknow ??
if someone does finally like me, welp i'm jumping straight to the next problem to worry about and that's losing them-- either by them changing their mind about me/me doing something wrong, or having to go separate ways (because all my regular friends are at sports, and having friends at sports isn't a very solid or consistent way of forming strong forever bonds if that makes sense)
idddkkk =( this turned into a vent bruh ;0;0;0;