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Hey, again
I swear just how many times would these awkward "hey"s go on
Anw, this time i got covid, imagine being healthy, couldn't be me
I don't like to complaint about stuff that are just meant to be but, it does feel like i'm getting put away from any of my passions
I have stayed in bed for like half a week now, thankfully i'm not in the hospital, that's one good thing
Still getting through a lot of headaches and coughs, thankfully again, still can eat even tho i can't chew and only melt porridge slowly
God, anyway, i just want to give a quick update bc i literally just went poof, gone, i hadn't even get the chance to do things i wanna do here or even reply to some of you!!
I miss it sm
Being sick make me thinked a lot about my life decisions
How my passion truly lies within art and programming
How i really want to make a game of my own
How i want to
Be me
Sigh
And yet here i am, laying on my bed, can't do anything or else my world would be tilted 180° everytime
It's like 7/10 things i looked back while in this state was about my art journey
How i literally roasted myself for every single mistakes that i see, watching a lot of youtube drawing tutorials doesn't help either
Well i just wanna say
Love hate with art is truly the best thing
When you physically can't draw, you'll miss it to the point of really wanting to make a painting with your own blood 💀
But when you can, you just hate every single process of how frustrated it becomes whenever a line is not in the place you want it to be
Like
God
I wish i could just be a cat and live my whole damn life without having to worry about the smallest things in life
But that's the beauty isn't it?
That humans can appreciate the smallest things in life
◆◆◆
my brain after typing these whole exay:
tine to fall and be one with earth
◆◆◆
I swear just how many times would these awkward "hey"s go on
Anw, this time i got covid, imagine being healthy, couldn't be me
I don't like to complaint about stuff that are just meant to be but, it does feel like i'm getting put away from any of my passions
I have stayed in bed for like half a week now, thankfully i'm not in the hospital, that's one good thing
Still getting through a lot of headaches and coughs, thankfully again, still can eat even tho i can't chew and only melt porridge slowly
God, anyway, i just want to give a quick update bc i literally just went poof, gone, i hadn't even get the chance to do things i wanna do here or even reply to some of you!!
I miss it sm
Being sick make me thinked a lot about my life decisions
How my passion truly lies within art and programming
How i really want to make a game of my own
How i want to
Be me
Sigh
And yet here i am, laying on my bed, can't do anything or else my world would be tilted 180° everytime
It's like 7/10 things i looked back while in this state was about my art journey
How i literally roasted myself for every single mistakes that i see, watching a lot of youtube drawing tutorials doesn't help either
Well i just wanna say
Love hate with art is truly the best thing
When you physically can't draw, you'll miss it to the point of really wanting to make a painting with your own blood 💀
But when you can, you just hate every single process of how frustrated it becomes whenever a line is not in the place you want it to be
Like
God
I wish i could just be a cat and live my whole damn life without having to worry about the smallest things in life
But that's the beauty isn't it?
That humans can appreciate the smallest things in life
◆◆◆
my brain after typing these whole exay:
tine to fall and be one with earth
◆◆◆