she doesn't know hooow to be like every other girl,
she's aloone in her little world
Valerie - TV Girl




rant/vent




i still don't like my appearance lol
honestly i don't think i'll ever be happy with it-- i mean, who ever feels fully satisfied right
i just worry about it a lot though-- mainly because it makes me feel like i'm not equal to her
and it's not just my appearance i hate, it's also my personality
i'm terrible at talking and i'm just so so scared to talk
it makes me come off as stand-off-ish, unfriendly, and unwanting of her attention, but i really like her
almost every word feels like a risk, an effort, a scary thing
she's the opposite of me-- everything i wish i was
i just wish i felt somewhat equal to her and confident in myself so i could love her and be able to talk to her in peace without my several nagging insecurities telling me i'm not near good enough
i love her tbh
why and how does she care about me
or does she care about me ? XD
but i just-- i don't understand
i love it, but i don't understand
i don't see what they say they're seeing
or implying they're seeing
i'm fat, my torso isn't narrow, i'm just kind of ugly
and my outside/public personality sucks so much
yet she still tries
she still does things, most of them probably being my overthinking imagination, but she still does things


anyways gn or gm/good avo ^^