morning posts are unusual

lil vent, just about my looks a g a i n cuz i have a sudden urge











rrrrr i've been tryyinngg but i still look faatttt =]]
maybe i'll look fat no matter what i try
i've eaten breakfast now but i feel like i regret it, i should've fasted again today
and like i would've thought i was fairly fit and capable of physical challenge, but i really don't look like it-- i look sooo soft and chubby but it feels like it just doesn't add up =[ i feel like if anyone else ate what i ate and did what i did they would look so athletic
when i first starting fasting and exercising during it, it didn't feel bad, but now it's starting to feel genuinely tiring and upsetting-- so i decided not to fast today but now i regret it =/ it won't help me lose the fat on my body
i just want to look thin and fit and lean, why is it so hard