Please- take me back home, those times when everything was still peaceful and happy

Does anybody really need me? Haha- well I thought I was enough, but I never was.
I know someone who needs me that anybody else could, though I never really paid any attention to her.
She needs the same thing I do, but I couldn't give her the happiness I want- if I did give her that, will anybody do the same thing to me? Haha- no. Never. All I truly need is myself, nobody else. Is it really bad to be greedy about something I never received before? You guys are lucky, all of you. And I'm happy you guys don't have the same brain I have, I don't want anybody getting hurt except for me, it hurts, but it also feels good for some reason, help.

No, I have to be a good person, it's the only way people would like me. I'll prove everyone that breathing isn't the only thing useful about me. I'm not worthless! Damn, there's gotta be someone who need me even for a bit?? That's the only reason why I want to live, it's the only thing I wanna live for! I wanna be there for anybody who needs me, but does anyone really need me? I'm so frustrated of thinking this way ever since that day.

This will go away soon, the person who I need the most doesn't really need me as much as I do! Awesome!