Im trying my hardest. I really am.
I’m trying to be okay for my parents. Im trying to be happy so they dont see.
Im trying to be supportive of my friends,
but I dont seem to have many left anymore...
Everyone hates me.
Everyone is out to get me.
I always get told that im “mean” “rude”
“Selfish” “Stupid” “bad at drawing” “annoying” “faking my depression (or whatever it really is)” “bossy” and that “I need to be grateful for what I have.”

NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME
ALL MY FRIENDS ALWAYS ACT LIKE THEY KNOW ME BUT LET ME TELL YOU



They dont.
Nobody knows me.
They only know what I show them.
And sometimes I wish I had someone who knew that I’m not the happy, perky, fun, girl that i show.
I wish someone knew that I am the EXACT OPPOSITE.

I smile so I dont cry.
I laugh so I dont sound sad.
I joke so you think im okay.
But im not.
All these things my friends and family tease me about, HURT!
I wish I could tell them that.
But I cant.
Because im weak.
Im sorry for the vent.
I just cant handle this anymore.