siiighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
more of me being a child (vent, i yelled a lot)
it's been 2 hours (unless i read the clock wrong or something) and all i've drawn is the line art. oh wait i havent even drawn Ollie's braids yet.
and it's such a simple drawing.
I. Want. To. Draw. Fast.
PEOPLE CAN DRAW SUCH AMAZING THINGS IN SUCH A SHORT TIME, WHILE I'M HERE, DRAWING SOMETHING ANYONE COULD DRAW IN 40 MINUTES AND I'M TAKING HOURS WITH THE LINE ART.
and no, i'm not saying "DrAwIng ReALLy SLoW iS sO bAD i'm A BaD PerSON", i just find it so. annoying. SOOOO ANNOYING!!!!! and all of my drawings look so stiff, and weird, and idk how to include a lot of sharp lines without making the shoulders look weird, OR ANYTHING LOOK WEIRD. i just want to be FAST AND GOOD AT THINGS. for some reason drawing isnt fun when it takes FOR-EV-ER (and it's supposed to be simple) to me. i mean, the drawing i'm dong right now doesnt even look that great, BUT I'M TAKING FOREVER!!!!! how, can i tell my brain, to just DRAW and not feel so tight and stiff with every line??? i like my art style, BUT JEEZ IT IS SO HARD TO DRAW SOMETIMES, I JUST.....
i want to try new styles, but i dont want to leave my current one cuz i like it too much, but i like a lot of other styles and i'm like "i wanna do that", but i'm scared if i do try to draw in other styles, my CURRENT STYLE will change, then i'll be sad, there's just too many problems, TOO MANY!!!!
my creativity is also plummeting, i'm finding it hard to make cool designs without struggling so hard. and my style keeps changing to things i dont like and i want to draw how i used to like, a month ago.
i just, want something to make me feel better, BUT THERE IS NOTHING. ALL I CAN DO IS VENT. MOTIVATION ISNT A THING IN MY WORLD AND I DONT KNOW WHY.
i feel like all i am is just an artist who's pushing their skills to what they cant really... do. but they're just managing it, because they're pushing their skill too what it isnt- if that makes any sense. like i'm supposed to be worse at art right now, but for every single drawing i'm pushing my skill over the limits to make something a bit better. THAT'S ALL I AM.
i've probably typed way too much, but if you read through it all, thanks a lot, i really appreciate and i dont know why you would do something like that.
;w;
it's been 2 hours (unless i read the clock wrong or something) and all i've drawn is the line art. oh wait i havent even drawn Ollie's braids yet.
and it's such a simple drawing.
I. Want. To. Draw. Fast.
PEOPLE CAN DRAW SUCH AMAZING THINGS IN SUCH A SHORT TIME, WHILE I'M HERE, DRAWING SOMETHING ANYONE COULD DRAW IN 40 MINUTES AND I'M TAKING HOURS WITH THE LINE ART.
and no, i'm not saying "DrAwIng ReALLy SLoW iS sO bAD i'm A BaD PerSON", i just find it so. annoying. SOOOO ANNOYING!!!!! and all of my drawings look so stiff, and weird, and idk how to include a lot of sharp lines without making the shoulders look weird, OR ANYTHING LOOK WEIRD. i just want to be FAST AND GOOD AT THINGS. for some reason drawing isnt fun when it takes FOR-EV-ER (and it's supposed to be simple) to me. i mean, the drawing i'm dong right now doesnt even look that great, BUT I'M TAKING FOREVER!!!!! how, can i tell my brain, to just DRAW and not feel so tight and stiff with every line??? i like my art style, BUT JEEZ IT IS SO HARD TO DRAW SOMETIMES, I JUST.....
i want to try new styles, but i dont want to leave my current one cuz i like it too much, but i like a lot of other styles and i'm like "i wanna do that", but i'm scared if i do try to draw in other styles, my CURRENT STYLE will change, then i'll be sad, there's just too many problems, TOO MANY!!!!
my creativity is also plummeting, i'm finding it hard to make cool designs without struggling so hard. and my style keeps changing to things i dont like and i want to draw how i used to like, a month ago.
i just, want something to make me feel better, BUT THERE IS NOTHING. ALL I CAN DO IS VENT. MOTIVATION ISNT A THING IN MY WORLD AND I DONT KNOW WHY.
i feel like all i am is just an artist who's pushing their skills to what they cant really... do. but they're just managing it, because they're pushing their skill too what it isnt- if that makes any sense. like i'm supposed to be worse at art right now, but for every single drawing i'm pushing my skill over the limits to make something a bit better. THAT'S ALL I AM.
i've probably typed way too much, but if you read through it all, thanks a lot, i really appreciate and i dont know why you would do something like that.
;w;
