i dunno if i want a simpler or more complicated art style heLP
so not many people know my age, so what age do yall think i am? based on my mannerisms and art etc
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16???
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13 lol
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im preeetttty sure i know your age, but 15/16?
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Yeah probably 16 or 17
im thinking about making my own gc, anyone wanna join ,, its just gonna be for chatting n stuff (venting is allowed)
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sure, but i probably won’t be too active
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oke
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sure :)
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Sure :D
about the groups i left um- i dunno,, i felt kinda out of place because yall are such good friends and i kinda felt like i was intruding on that .
can someone tell me its gonna be okay? 'cause im not sure.
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everything is going to be just okay, don't worry
im so sick of myself
rather be, rather be
anyone, anyone else
but jealousy, jealousy,
started following me.
/TW SELF HARM TALK.
"i didn't know what to say"
BULLSHIT. THATS SUCH A FUCKING LIE. WE DATED FOR 7 MONTHS AND HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR WELL OVER A YEAR.
you could have at least said it was gonna be okay.
AT THE LEAST.
I CAME TO YOU BECAUSE I WAS ACTIVELY BLEEDING AND IN PAIN BECAUSE IVE BEEN CUTTING MYSELF FOR THREE CONSECUTIVE DAYS.
AND YOU DONT RESPOND FOR HOW MANY FUCKING HOURS?? AND ONLY TEXT ME WHEN I MAKE A VENT??
AND IN GENERAL.
I TEXT YOU AND THEN I GO TO A SOCIAL MEDIA AND SEE YOUVE FUCKING IGNORED ME AND POSTED ON THERE. YOU LITERALLY ONLY FUCKING REPLY TO MY TEXTS WHEN I ADRESS YOU BY FUCKING NAME.
YOU USED TO BE THERE FOR ME. BUT YOU NEVER FUCKING ARE ANYMORE.
WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT BOND. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE TWO OF US BEING CLINGY TO EACH OTHER, TO TEXTING FOR HOURS DAILY??
its almost as if you stopped caring as soon as we started dating.
but now we arent.
because you clearly dont care about me anymore.
so, bye. im blocking all your socials and your number.
i dont want anything to do with you anymore.
u/synesthesia and i arent dating anymore. i broke it off.
dont ask why.
just figured id say it.
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> trickster Okay. I wish you luck (even if it doesn’t exist, I hope it does.) Take care
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> Lichenthrope no and it doesnt matter. ill be fine.
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Are you okay, Tricky?
trying to not make a compulsive decision i might regret.
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if u wanna talk abt it u can always come to me sheepy senpai its good to say things out lour or write it out b4 doing it
im fucking sick and tired of finally trusting people and loving them and opening up about an ongoing issue i have and then they leave me on fucking read, post a bit about their problem, then post about a crush.
yeah. this is targeted.
you know who the fuck you are.
i MIGHT make dr: thh fanart tonight, idk yet
i feel like i should draw more
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i was thinking the same thing [abt me] but its important to take ur time and take care of urself :)
</3
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Finally. Now I can say how I dont like her- Someone who agrees
https://tricksterr.carrd.co/
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:O
wanting to cut off all my relationships rn except thats gonna fuck me over because theyre all perfectly healthy and happy and its just gonna mess with my abandonment problems more
Not even sure if this is a vent.
It's so empty. Like usual.
I had my burst of excitement hours ago, but i can't feel anything, as usual.
pain, however?
i can feel that.
im just hurting myself for fun at this point.
so i can feel something, for a pass-time.
I can definitely feel pain though, and thats something. anything is good
figuring out razor blades really made the job easier. i used to be using a set of dull fabric scissors
razors though? they do it faster and better
watching the red marks slowly form on my skin, feeling the prickles of pain coming in.. its amazing.
the blood slowly rip itself through the tears in my arm, steadily dripping and running down my skin.
it mixing with the shower water and run down in odd squiggles,
becoming more blood than water
its amazing
fascinating
mesmerizing
addicting
it makes me feel something
the only issue is when i run out of skin to tear.
but hey, I'll cross that bridge when i get there
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This sounds all too familiar AKA me yesterday And I will tell you that it may feel good in the moment to just feel anything but after? It's just a temporary feeling that your getting from this, and eventually something bad will happen and you won't have the chance to feel anything ever again. Believe me, I understand this, but for me it was a boxcutters instead of dull scissors so not completely understanding of that but I do get this
mental/personality/etc disorders are not excuses. you take responsibility for your actions, whether or not a disorder you have/are suspected to have effected it.
im suspected to have bpd. by my family and close friends.
i never use it as an excuse. i always take resonsibilty.
as should you.
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Very true! Just because I have anxiety in the car doesnt mean I can just cancel appointments and avoid family
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DAMN. HELL YES. My brother has a handful of disorders and gets away with everything because of it jsfskfhdsf
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preach
DANGANRONPA IS SO GOOD WTFFF???????????
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Yea it's fun and have great characters:>
guess who joined the danganronpa fandom !! </3
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> 🦇 yee i am still on the first lol
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> trickster Good choices! Assuming you're still on the 1st I like Taka and Chihiro :>
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> 🦇 mmm i dontthink so, but i do like kyoko and celestia !
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Do you have a favorite character so far?
been trying to get myself happy today but my arm still hurts from last night :/
also kinda went back into an apathetic state of mind so sorry if anything comes off weird
ADD ME, IM STRAWBERRLOVED AND I JUST STARTED EHFFGFTEFD
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> trickster Thata may be why- I'm on Vanilla
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> 🦇 yee i am ob hollyberry
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I cant fine you unless you're just strawberr. Are you perhaps on the HollyBerry Server?
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I'll send ya one!
i should go to bed before i hurt myself more
does anyone here wanna be my guinea pig because im feeling unreasonably angry rn and i kinda wanna take it out on something
or idk maybe thats a bad coping mechanism
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Its a reasonable coping mechanism. If you want to, you can talk about it, yell at me in all caps, etc, I won't get offended lol
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*stands in my dad does it to me so why not?*
yk i could be really fucking toxic if i wanted to.
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we could all be
i dont feel anything
diagnosed things i have:
-tourette syndrome
undiagnosed things i show signs of having:
-an anxiety disorder (gad?) - VERY LIKELY
-did/osdd-1b - DEFINITE
-psychosis (symptom, trauma stem?) - DEFINITE
-aphantasia - POSSIBLE
-prosopagnosia - VERLY LIKELY
-autism (somewhere on the spectrum) - LIKELY
-clinical depression - DEFINITE
-body dysmorphia - LIKELY
-depersonalization-derealization disorder - POSSIBLE
-bpd - LIKELY
sorry if i get snappy or seem apathetic
i dont really wanna talk about it, but i relapsed, i hurt a lot, and i cant think too well rn
just. im just trying to get my mind back normal by talking, so this is just a clarification
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I think I know what u relapsed about and I've been there so if you need to talk, my dm's are always open for anyone
Why not have several art styles? That's what I'm doing.