I have these moments of big emotion its sort of every few months. This has been a bad one. I tried to do something drastic even going as far as trying to say goodbyes and I regret even trying. But I in no way have the resources to do anything bad that I would be willing to do. I wanted to die but didn't want to risk hurting without the reward. So I instead tried something that was very clearly not enough... I don't think I can talk it much for a while as it's still very sensitive but didn't want to stress you out with the unknown. So know that I'm doing okay, I'll be okay, and if I want to talk about it I will. From now on this is the most information I can give without getting too personal.
I am still not completely sure how much you'd even care after all. You're all just internet strangers how might not even pay attention to my art at all.
SpaceGrillXD
Please ask about my obsessions it would make me so happy hehe!
She/They
Please just leave if you're homophobic... Save yourself the time!
- My Twitch： twitch.tv/SpaceGrillXD
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You might never see me again.
If things go as planned nobody ever will.
Goodbye.
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I'm always here if you need to vent <3
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> SpaceGrillXD Its ok it's ok Alright omg you ok? Like I know you said you're done now but I wanna make sure. I'm open to talk or for you to just vent. Thank goodness you're ok Grill
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I'm sorry about worrying you guys... I'm fine now. It ummmmm didn't work.
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we all care about you a lot, so please don't go! you can take a break if you need to but stay safe :<
How yah doing? I'm doing a-okay! In fact I almost finished a drawing last night but got tired and went to sleep but I can't wait to finish it cuz it's at the fun part where I get to color the lineart!!! It's tough work but really rewarding for me! Can't wait to see what you guys think of it after a week of working on this ^^
I doing it YIPPEEEE
Please someone validate the fire hair so I don't end up redoing it!
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> SpaceGrillXD No problem
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> Joshlikegame🇲🇽 yeah he's a fire boy very silly
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> MrFlagada thank you thank you! You did a public service!
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the hair is fire ong 🔥🔥💯
I'm actually drawing something! This is something to rejoice for! Do you know how long its been!!! Also yes the first thing I draw in weeks is gay why wouldn't it be... Can't wait to finish this!
Also if yah want some context for what is happening in it PLEASE ask I want to talk someone's ear off!!!
Sorry about my last little outburst. I was in a bad place and well I think I was being a bit dramatic. I'm okayish now! And I'm not leaving anytime soon, but I might not post very often.
What if I just disappeared
Surely nobody would notice
I don't have many friends
I only really have one real life friend anyways
All I do is mess up anyways
I'm failing school
I have no fans at all
I'm nothing
Maybe it would just be better this way
Surely nobody would care
If I end up disappearing as I said I would this is a final goodbye I guess
Hope I made at least one person happy
I hope you guys won't miss me
I hope you guys are better off without me
Bye
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I’m not active on here very much. However, I’ll help you as much as I can.
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> SpaceGrillXD Just make sure your safe ok... Your our friend It's ok to leave the site if you want Just make sure to come back when your ready
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> SpaceGrillXD I hope things get better for you!
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> SpaceGrillXD I'm so sorry.. I misunderstood, I didn't realize you were more affected by real life than by this site.. If you need a break from here, please do so if you feel that it's best! You can always change your mind when you feel okay <33
How does one make a valentines gift drawing for someone they may or may not have a crush on... THE EXACT INFORMATION IS CONFIDENTIAL! But howwww... I am begging!
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> Muna Sketches okay okay writing this down...
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Just make it like a "Have a great day!" gift, or make it about appreciating instead of love loving y'know? Make it about being grateful for that someone =>
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:( I am very bad at this
Tango a fire boy and Jimmy is a canary :D I hope this will give you a good idea on how to draw them! (I'm giving you options!)
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> M3LL0M0CHI THEY ARE GREATTTTT!!! I would die for this ship...
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TYSM! I'LL DO MY BEST! X3 THEY LOOK SO CUTE S:FNVLDFKNSD
I may still be depressed BUT at least my cat loves me enough to say hi back!
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whatya guys talk about
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We talk a bit, it's nice!
IM GOING BACK TO MY ROOTS!!! IM GOING BACK TO DREAMSMP FNAF CROSSOVERS!!! IM GOING BACK!!! HELPPPPPPP! I CAN'T STOP IM OBSESSING HOLY SHMOLY! IM GOING TO REDRAW THAT ONE COMIC I MADE OF THE AU! THERE'S NO STOPPING THIS, THIS IS A CANON EVENT!!! Anyone wanna obsess with me? 👉👈
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That old art is horrendous but im still proud of the writing for the au ngl
I haven't been active much here because I'm more busy with my friend than usual... Oh and I've been having serious art block trying to get inspired by reading fanfics! I have 2 wips though so we'll see if i end up liking either of them by the end of this hehehe! I need to find more time honestly...
Another level 1!!! I'm really glad, this might be the first time I've gotten two in a row but who knows I could have in the past...
https://medibang.com/picture/qt2401151634311000023169705/
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yeah I checked and no I've done 4 in a row multiple times forget that XD
https://medibang.com/picture/qt2401151634311000023169705/
I wanted to promote this so much because I'm so proud! Its been far too long since I've actually finished art, so this is big! Please leave a like and I wanna know what people think! Can't wait until I can post the other thing I've been working on ^^
Yes I did die again.
Yes I will be working on the comic.
Yes I am furiously drawing fanart.
Yes it is life series fanart because I am mentally ill.
No I am not okay, in fact I am currently in the process of dying again...
Buttttt look at this art I found on Tumblr!!! I love these comics so much AHHHHH! The comic is called "Desert duo vigilante au" so look it up on Tumblr if you can :D
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> Gahrv I could never have said that better, thanks ^^
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> Babalon What the fuck man... I'm literally gay... what type of question is this??? And if you harass me I will just block you, please try to change there are lots of people you could talk to that can explain this better than me but please be nice to everyone whether they like men or woman!
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> Babalon I understand your comment but I don't share your way of thinking. We may have been created in pairs but if a man loves another man he doesn't have to feel bad about it. You shouldn't go around commenting and asking people if they feel bad for thinking that gay people are okay. If you want, keep that way of thinking but don't treat people differently because of it, because that would be homophobia
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> Gahrv I mean only a man and a woman need to love each other Not a two men and two women.we are created in pairs this is something that is prohibited. Same with the others trans, lesbian bisexuality ect.. They are all prohibited things and it does nothing with our gender.
I can hopefully finish school early today and then draw/play games ^^
Who would be interested in me streaming after 4 months and just drawing little sillies with y'all?
It'll probably be at 3-4pm est :3
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> SpaceGrillXD Thank you qwq
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> 👾SÆRO_3Ø8👾 thats alright ^^
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I would like to see sadly I can't talk qwq Or comment
So much time, but so little motivation... it happens to everyone but STILLLLLLLL T^T :(((( WHYYYYYYY MEEEEEEEEEE!!!! Welp time to spend even more time on C.ai and Pinterest than usual...
This is me with no motivation btw
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Same Same same same thing 😭😭😭
Sometimes I feel like my art isn't getting seen... Maybe I should try drawing whatever fanart is popular so people actually see my art for once...
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> ★ 𐌕Ꮤ𐌉Ᏽ ★ Yeah I've been doing that and not drawing alot as well, but maybe doing a bit of both wouldn't hurt...
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same, I still draw stuff that makes me happy tho
This is a higher rank than I expected, ngl though I think this is the reason I had to take a long break, I was very sad with where I was in the ranks...
I just woke up but gonna get a commission finished and then I'll start on the comic ^^
Hey, hi I'm back... I don't know when my next art will be done buttt I can show you my three new ocs in a bit, stay tuned!
I might just quit medibang now, I just don't feel like it I'll keep my account up just in case I ever come back but I'm done. Goodbye everyone <3
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😭😭😭😭😭hope you have a nice life
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Ok! Goodbye, hope your day/whatever time goes well!!
:D chose which one you want # 1-7 left to right
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> SpaceGrillXD It’s fine
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> Shortrose Awwww man sorry we didn't do this sooner :(
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> SpaceGrillXD I sadly left the group already to join a other one 😭
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> iLightz Okay :D
How are y'all! I'm getting ready to make some dinner what about you? What time is it, for me it's around 6pm
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> SpaceGrillXD Oooo noice 👌✨
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Dude my arrow broke :'( | .......................................\/
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> 𝑬𝑽@ Alright btw I said what I made down there | \/
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> M3LL0M0CHI Yoooo! I made ckicken nuggies and ate them :) plus some leftover soup
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> SpaceGrillXD Lmaoooo, I take lots of photos too
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> EinTheTransDemon I have too many pictures of my cats, I'm taking a sort of photography class and they are all I take pictures of hehe
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> SpaceGrillXD Jsjsjsj, I have like no good photos of my cats 😭😭
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> EinTheTransDemon YeAH !!!! I worked so hard to get this photo omg XD
how yallll doing, I'm tired as fuck but hby?
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> gOobEr arT Yeah I think thats probably a good idea...
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> SpaceGrillXD Ohh well take some rest :>
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> gOobEr arT just sleepy
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> SpaceGrillXD How are you today
WAIT THEY HAVE GAY KISSING EMOJIS!!! HIW DID I NEVER SEE THIS👨❤️💋👨👩❤️💋👩 WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME? HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN A THING ?!?
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> M3LL0M0CHI Yeah! 👍💕
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> Shortrose It's just a stereotype ig XD a lot of bi youtubers I watch talks about it as a joke lol
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> SpaceGrillXD 👌✨
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Bi
My parents took me out of regular school and put me in online school, right? But they also try to remove all social media and refuse to let me have online friends. SO WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!? What are expecting me to do go outside by myself which they also don't allow and make friends with the fucking neighbors that only talk about sex and shit and honestly sound like the type of people who abused me by just ignoring my existence until they wanted to talk to me a few years ago. I feel a little isolated by a lack of options... Honestly I just wanna know how they expect me to gain friends with this environment?
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> SpaceGrillXD Ok Also sorry for the late reply I got sick so I can't move much because my body hurt
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> SÆRO_3Ø8 Wait what are you sorry about? It isn't your fault my parents suck! Besides I'll be fine!
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> SpaceGrillXD Sorry...
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> SpaceGrillXD No don’t feel bad (that also comes to my mind of how people have it worse)
My whole life feels like a joke and at this point I've been treating it like one. Just like how all my friends in elementary school treated me like I didn't have feelings just because I had a harder time getting my thoughts across as actual words. And just like how my fucking parents go to TAKING WALKS IN ORDER TO CURE MY SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, instead of taking me to a therapist of course. My mental health is a nightmare and I am waiting for someone (myself included) to one day actually want to hang out with me because I sure didn't have that as a child!
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> SpaceGrillXD You're Welcome :D
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> M3LL0M0CHI Thank you so much <3
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> SpaceGrillXD Awe :( Well even being online I hope that I can support you till the end 🙏 💗
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> M3LL0M0CHI I'm afraid not because my parents switched to online school so I never really get to interact with people my age, unless I'm fine with hanging out with the girls at church who just ignore me when I try to make friends with them because most of them know eachother and only hang out because of school. I just have no hope for my life and I feel like adhd is a part of it. Thank you so much though :)
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> SpaceGrillXD i love them too lol
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> ★astro★ Yeah! I just love the lil seabunny saero made!
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d'awwwww the babies
if you ever want to talk or draw to keep your mind off of things, I'm here as well, I care a lot about what happens to you as much as I care what happens to my friends in real life
> SpaceGrillXD Just please know we all care for you grill
> M3LL0M0CHI Thanks for caring
> 👾SÆRO_3Ø8👾 Well thanks