Bizarre… I have no other way to explain it. I remember participating in the coloring contest today and I remember doing my best coloring, but it’s so weird seeing it on my homepage… Probably because the template of it is in style I would never draw in. I think it is considered “standard” in some ways and I don’t dislike it, but I just can’t draw in it…

I don’t think that anyone is looking forward to it, butI finished it.
Because of terrible wifi, I’ll attempt to upload it tomorrow in the morning. Time to go sleep.

I finished and uploaded first chapter of an experimental slice of life comics and I even painted a thumbnail for it. My current plan is to update it daily(maybe as a morning warm up or something.)

There’s also another project’s first chapter which I plan to finish and upload today. This one is slightly more serious, but I promised myself that I wouldn’t take it too seriously.

Submitting here has its benefits, but also very annoying drawbacks. What I hate the most about submitting here is how long it can take. Sometimes the art I try to upload, loads almost instantly, but sometimes it takes FOREVER. And who CARES about the file size, the max I can upload per one drawing is 30 and that’s not that much(plus it rarely ever reaches this number of a file size), so why does it need to load for so long…

That’s the thing I hate about submitting art here and it’s a thing that is actually quite maddening😡

I’m pretty sure I like sweets.
Like REALLY like sweets.

When I buy them I can’t control myself and eat way more than I planned(I though about using them as a reward)…
So… that means… I have to avoid buying them for as long as I can because I have literally zero income right now and I don’t want to be dependent on others.
😭😭 I wanna eat sweets, but at the same time…
I’m not sure if I deserve them yet.

I’ll work harder!!😲
And yes, I know I’ve said it many times before and ended up wasting time, but I really want to become worthy and this step of my life is for reinventing — breaking down myself and rebuilding anew, into something I want to be… And THAT, for starters, would be a person who deserves to eat tasty sweets.