I had a fucking Moment™ today while I was out getting my braces repaired with my dad. I came out to my family a few months back and he’s been trying to understand me and my feelings more so, whenever we go out and it’s just the two of us, he’ll ask me how I am n’ stuff. He’s aware that I used to have a crush on someone who, at the time, I’d considered a pretty close friend. I dunno why but I just started going on about her for a while. It got to a point when I started talking about her ex-girlfriend. Now, my dad may not be very well acquainted with the LGBT community but he seemed to realise something in the middle of me talking. He had asked me if I was jealous of the girl who was dating my friend/crush. Initially, I was kinda like “Me? Jealous? Please- that’s ridiculous-“ but then I thought about it a bit and I was I realised, in that one moment that, yes, I had been jealous of that girl. Now, normally, I’m not the envying type but she was the first person I ever truly had feelings for so... it’s not all that surprising, now I think about it. The other thing I thought about today was how little I actually care for pronouns. I remember a while back, when I was talking to someone over dm in discord and they just called me a he or him. At first, I was kinda thrown by it but I didn’t actually think to correct them and say that I was a girl. My best friend happened to be looking over my shoulder while I was messaging them and she had asked if I was gonna correct them. I’d told her no, sorta as a joke and to see how long they’d go without knowing I was actually female. Of course, they found out relatively soon after but it got me thinking. I don’t know exactly what to do with this information yet but I think it’s kinda interesting. For now, I think I’ll just stick to female or neutral pronouns but, once I become confident enough and more certain of it, I’ll probably just go with any and all pronouns. You could probably call me a gnome or troll and I’d likely still respond- mind you, I’d probably be slightly pissed at the... height comparison but I’d still respond anyways. I just don’t think it’s all that important what I’m addressed as- whether it’s male, female or non-binary. But, for now, until I work out the details, imma stick with what I already go by and take it a step at a time.