So, you know how the last time I left the furry fandom, it messed with me more than all the other times before that? Well, pretty much since then, I've noticed that I'm not as involved/interested in the fandom and I'm honestly kinda bummed about it. The last time I left, it was because of some dumbhole responding to an old YouTube comment I made and they told me not to rejoin the fandom. Apparently, they had some bad encounters with furries and now they hate all furries. Because of how they were stupid enough to respond to an OLD comment from a YEAR ago at the time, it resurfaced some memories of when I got bullied out of the fandom and that's what caused me to leave again. I don't really know if I can even call myself a furry anymore because I've unintentionally distanced myself from the fandom. And because I've heard that it keeps getting more and more toxic and I've heard more bad things about some of the popufurs I used to be a fan of, I don't know if it's worth returning to the fandom now. I stopped drawing my fursonas after a while and now I really miss them. Cupcake, Sprinkle, Garnet, Sparkles, Stardust, I miss them all so much. I used to always be excited about possibly making a fursuit of one of my fursonas but now I just think that would just be a waste of money, energy and time, as well as it just being really embarrassing. Yesterday, I told Mom that I would never be caught dead dressing up like a big, colorful cartoon animal and to some extent, I'm serious. I'm just not willing to risk getting bullied to death again over something that was just an innocent hobby for me. And if you remember the whole Gamers vs Furries "war" on TikTok from 2018 (I was 14 then), some gamers said you can't be a gamer and a furry at the same time. You could only be one or the other. And I've been an avid gamer for quite a while so I'm not upset about that but I really wish I could go back to being 12 years old and just getting into the furry fandom. I wish I could see how it felt to be part of another fandom that made me feel normal again. (The My Little Pony/Brony fandom was the first one I joined that made me feel normal. After that was the furry fandom.) I just miss those days. And I've also unintentionally distanced myself from the JoJo's Bizarre Adventure fandom and I miss being a part of that one, too. I stopped watching the anime after a while, I stopped drawing fanart of/cosplaying as my comfort characters from the show and I just kinda lost interest in hearing about the Part 6 anime coming out. I also miss when I first joined that fandom. I was 16 at the time. I miss all my comfort characters, especially Jotaro, Dio, Polnareff, Kakyoin, Jolyne, Josuke and Star Platinum. I don't know why I lost interest in both fandoms but all I know is that this time, I didn't actively choose to leave/distance myself from either one. It just happened on its own. But at the same time, because of how both fandoms have such a bad reputation and because they keep becoming more and more toxic, I don't know if it's worth going back to either one so I don't know what to do here. I don't know why I let random things like this bother me. I feel stupid for it.