So, you know how I have a problem of not knowing who to believe when I hear two conflicting opinions on something? Recently, I've been wondering if it was a good idea for me to leave the K-Pop fandom. (Yes, I actually did leave) I miss being a part of it but when I heard that so many different groups that I liked were problematic, that made me want to leave. And with BTS, that especially stung since I really liked so many of their songs. I stopped listening to K-Pop altogether a while back and like I said, I really miss it. There are a lot of singers whose music I loved when I was younger but then they turned out to be bad people and it's still hard for me to let those songs go. "Rainbow" and "Candy Cane Lane" by Sia are a few examples of that. With BTS, their songs "Idol", "Your Eyes Tell", "Inner Child" and "Bulletproof" were some of my comfort songs and I don't know how to feel about that anymore. Those songs keep popping into my mind now and then and I almost always end up crying because now I don't know how to feel about BTS/K-Pop in general anymore. So many people have said that they learned from their mistakes and they apologized several times and other people say they haven't so I'm not sure who to believe anymore. I really miss being a K-Pop fan but I'm also tired of thinking about how I got bullied for it and how I can't like anything anymore without people being cancelled all the time. I really don't know what to do. I mean, I know I could always just find another music genre to listen to, like hyperpop but K-Pop was one of my favorites because it reminded me of a friend I haven't heard from in years and it's been hard for me to let it go because of that. I'm usually a "separate the art from the artist" person but only to a certain extent. I don't know why always miss being in a fandom once I leave but I wish I could just stop being this way. I just miss the days when I didn't have to worry about everything I like always being bad and when I never had to worry about being ridiculed (sometimes by my own family) for what I liked and having to always keep it a secret (Like me being a JoJo fan. That's something I very rarely talk about anymore, even to my closest friends.) I just wish I could go back to those days when I could just like what I like without having to always worry about cancel culture, being bullied and keeping everything a secret.