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I'm not sure if you can see this right now, or if you actually read any of these but...
I'm so sorry about everything, I'm supposed to be the one supporting and cheering you up, not the one that keeps making you feel bad, but I still do, somehow. I'm really, really sorry for that-
You posted it right after I vented, that couldn't just be a coincidence. If I kept my mouth shut, maybe you wouldn't post that-
Just, please remember that I love you and I always will, I'm mentally unstable rn so I might say hurtful things, but they're just some sort of a reaction over something and my mood would eventually be better, and I don't mean them, so please, don't feel bad about it. I don't hate you, I promise. I love you no matter what

I'll find a way to heal myself, and I thought letting it out would be helpful so they won't bottle up inside me, and they're not targeted to you, I'm talking about some other certain people, and it's not you, I don't hate you, it's someone else irl.

I just really need to let those out, or I might do something else- but physically,

I'm so sorry

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I'm the worst. All I ever do is to complain about the pain I get, but I never really think about how much pain I give to everyone. I deserve to bleed and suffer. I keep yearning for people's attention because I never had any when I was younger. Why do I keep ruining everything? It's my fault that he doesn't want me anymore as much as he did. I knew I was worthless, what am I even proving myself? I keep ruining everything and I make everyone feel bad. I kept saying "you can do it, I believe in you" to others while I can't. There's nothing good in me and nobody likes me anymore. I deserve pain and suffering, and I should be quiet so I won't make anybody upset.






I'm so close to giving up, dammit.

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