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Ko-fi thx!
Thanks to Rae(Mother Macabre) for helping me with this and for being by my side, she is my angel.
I’m late with this because I was working…as always.
It has been 3 years working non stop.
I don’t have time to invest in my personal projects anymore. I don’t play games, don’t chat with friends, can’t draw for myself… I can do nothing else nowadays, mostly because I’m always working nonstop.
As Rae mentioned, the economy over here is dark and chaotic. Unemployment and prices are skyrocketing since years ago… So, my only choices are to slave myself or to starve :/
This is really awful… I need to move to a new place but I’m having an increasing difficulty raising money for this… to deprive myself from my life made my depression reach its edge. No fun, almost no rest, just endless work in pieces of art that reflects nothing of me in it… I’m not even allowed to use my own style… I don’t even remember when it was the last time I used my creativity for something.
Yes, I DO LOVE my work with Rae because her style approaches a lot to what I REALLY enjoy to do.
I’m trying my best to keep my dream to be able to work creating my own stories.
I had this chance long ago. I was becoming bigger, numbers rising and some webcomics sites noticing me, but I just… I had no money and my family was starving and I was desperate, so I threw my dreams in the trash bin and started selling commissions, which became a downward spiral.
Nowadays, no one even knows that I’m a horror/psychedelic artist. I’m just “the girl who replicates ghibli very well”
There is a mountain of ghibli pictures of happy families done by me. Meanwhile, my identity just vanished under it.
Sorry for venting out… I’m just so tired…
All of your donations gave me a bit of hope again… I don’t know how to do it, but I don’t want to give up yet! It’s just that… its so hard to keep going.
But I’ll try to gain my space with my own creations. I need to be myself again, and not only the girl who draws ghibli to avoid starving.
I would be really happy if you all keep supporting me on this! And I’m not talking money. I know I need money to live, but following my works, giving me feedback… literally engaging with my work is a big help too!
I hope someday I will be able to stop with these commissions and live only from my own stories, and with these kofies there is a little hope back after many years. I can feel that there are people trying to support me on my journey.
Thanks a lot.
I can’t say “I’m cured” because I’m not, and probably I never will (All after all I still have to draw these commissions) but now things seems to be a bit different around me!
Thanks so much for all the support.
Thanks so much for every single message.
Thanks so much for being here for me when I needed.
I’ll try to post new things and update my ko-fi tiers
By the way, one last thing… lets try to play a game?
You guys give me a theme bellow and I’ll try to create a story with this, using my own style.
I can’t promise it will be fast since I have work to do, but can we try to have fun with this together? :)
I’ll be waiting for the suggestions!
See Ya! c:
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