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🎼 song I’m writing WIP 🎶

Please mother please don’t make me take my leave
Just wait and see
What I can be
I know I’m not who you’re hoping for
But please don’t kick me out your door
Families
A human word
Meaning love in a human herd
Mother father daughters sons
But do children only exist because of “having fun”?
We may not agree on certain things
You’ll be you and I’ll be me
But can’t we still at least be friends
And love each other to the end?
Every night I lie in bed
Thinking what I’ll say to you
On that fateful day I dread
When I need to tell the truth
So I bet you
Please mother please don’t make me take my leave
Just wait and see
What I can be
I know I’m not who you’re hoping for
But please don’t kick me out your door
(I’ll finish it later.)

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🎼 song I’m writing WIP 🎶

Please mother please don’t make me take my leave
Just wait and see
What I can be
I know I’m not who you’re hoping for
But please don’t kick me out your door
Families
A human word
Meaning love in a human herd
Mother father daughters sons
But do children only exist because of “having fun”?
We may not agree on certain things
You’ll be you and I’ll be me
But can’t we still at least be friends
And love each other to the end?
Every night I lie in bed
Thinking what I’ll say to you
On that fateful day I dread
When I need to tell the truth
So I bet you
Please mother please don’t make me take my leave
Just wait and see
What I can be
I know I’m not who you’re hoping for
But please don’t kick me out your door
(I’ll finish it later.)

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🎼 song I’m writing WIP 🎶

Please mother please don’t make me take my leave
Just wait and see
What I can be
I know I’m not who you’re hoping for
But please don’t kick me out your door
Families
A human word
Meaning love in a human herd
Mother father daughters sons
But do children only exist because of “having fun”?
We may not agree on certain things
You’ll be you and I’ll be me
But can’t we still at least be friends
And love each other to the end?
Every night I lie in bed
Thinking what I’ll say to you
On that fateful day I dread
When I need to tell the truth
So I bet you
Please mother please don’t make me take my leave
Just wait and see
What I can be
I know I’m not who you’re hoping for
But please don’t kick me out your door
(I’ll finish it later.)

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Jeffuri-san left a comment!

🎼 song I’m writing WIP 🎶

Please mother please don’t make me take my leave
Just wait and see
What I can be
I know I’m not who you’re hoping for
But please don’t kick me out your door
Families
A human word
Meaning love in a human herd
Mother father daughters sons
But do children only exist because of “having fun”?
We may not agree on certain things
You’ll be you and I’ll be me
But can’t we still at least be friends
And love each other to the end?
Every night I lie in bed
Thinking what I’ll say to you
On that fateful day I dread
When I need to tell the truth
So I bet you
Please mother please don’t make me take my leave
Just wait and see
What I can be
I know I’m not who you’re hoping for
But please don’t kick me out your door
(I’ll finish it later.)

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Trapped on the inside

You see me walking on the streets
And presume I’m safe and sound.
But the truth about me is that I’ve always been prison bound.
I was born, but of course, into a family that I never chose
The life they tried to give me filled my heart with only woes.
What they believe is wonderful, I hold deep compassion for it
But even so, unbeknownst to them, I don’t believe it.
My whole life I’ve learned to keep my true self locked up tight
So as to convince that I’m doing what they believe is “right”.
Happiness is a stranger that dares not come into play
Even so I wear a smile for others anyway.
I know once I tell them that a miserable chase will soon ensue
But even so I choose to hold love for all of you.
One week away comes the time when I must move away
And then I prepare to tell them though far be that day.
The child Jeffrey, noble, pure, innocent, and bright
That’s what he wants to believe describes him in other’s hearts and sight.
But until then I’m stuck here, imprisoned by tradition
Trapped in a place if you don’t follow with them you’re doomed to perdition.
Heed my words, outside I look like I don’t care
But inside, I suffer deeply, pain too much to bare...

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Ok ok ok
I know that colleges have you take sexual assault prevention quizzes for safety and all.
But
A KID LIKE ME CAN’T EVEN THINK ABOUT BAD SITUATIONS LIKE THAT WITHOUT WANTING TO HIDE AWAY FROM THE WORLD FOREVER!!! I MEAN COME ON IT WAS SO SCARY AND DESCRIPTIVE AND IT JUST PUT ME INTO MY “men are bad” STIGMA AGAIN
DISMDJEMDJd
Sorry...
I just can’t stand it sometimes and it’s shoved in my face and then I feel bad about being a guy again and then I start crying and there’s this whole thing.
...
Sorry; I just needed to not die and burst out for a minute...

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Can I... talk for a minute?

I’m scared.
About my future.
I know I said I wasn’t scared anymore, but I am again.
The main reason is I’m terrified of telling my family I’m an atheist. They’ll likely hate me forever.
Another reason is finding the right girl. First of all, not a lot of girls take pride in being big and fat, and sadly that’s something I have to have in my women in order to fully be in love with them (that isn’t to say I hate skinny girls, I just don’t like them romantically. I know that’s kinky, but I CANNOT HELP IT). And I don’t understand the “woman language” (what I mean by that is that I don’t get the social cues most of them expect men to understand. For example, say a couple is in a store and the girl says “you don’t have to get me anything” in which case she may expect the guy to get her something anyway). I need to be told exactly what you mean, or what you want, otherwise I don’t know to do it! If she wants babies or wants sexual intimacy or wants me to touch her or something she HAS TO TELL ME IN ORDER FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!
And having Beatrice in my head has really done a number on my love scope, too. I mean, I’m trying so hard to not narrow standards down to all her features, but it’s so hard!!!!
And i hate being tall. I want to be shorter than the girl. I want to be the shorter and submissive one. I don’t like it when the guy is taller. And yet I’m like 5’10” so the odds aren’t in my favor.
Third reason is, yep you guessed it, struggling with my “men are bad” mindset.
Geez, what’s wrong with me?! I’m so different it’s going to get me in trouble.

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Also ( a wee debate of mine with a kid)

Kid (and one I desperately want to educate) at church: Ky why when you draw men do they look like rly feminine and when you draw men they look really masculine? You support transgenders! *points finger at me*
Me: ok first of all, that’s my style, and not even my choice. Second, I get neutrality is a myth (a phrase Calvinist kids know quite well lol) but i am close to such a myth with transgenders.
Kid: well- OK THEN! Clearly you’re for gays
Me: Suck it up kid. Truth is gays and lesbians tend to have happier marriages then most “normal” couples, and divorce is just as much a sin in your worldview but I don’t see that being protested now do I?
Kid:...
Me: oh and also there are only two mentions of homosexuality in the Bible, one of them being at the city of Sodom where for all we know it could have just been the fact they wanted to screw the angels, plus Lot offered his women to be raped which is just as much a horrid thing to you correct? Second-
Kid: No Kyyyy rape isn’t a sin and even if it is it’s better than homosexuality
Me: completely stunned at the fact this stupid kid just played the card. Which card is that? The card he doesn’t get in trouble ever because he’s the pastor’s nephew.

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