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In about two weeks I’m drawing again.

And this time.
I’m not using Notability.
My iPad will be unblocked completely. I’ll be downloading the actual MediBang app. I’ll be experimenting with how it works and which tools do what. I’ll be doing some real, actual, authentic art. No more tracing. No more base using. No more lack of background. No more sloppy shading. No more non original eye styles. No more badly drawn hands. No more wonky inaccurate body types. No more stupidly drawn breasts. No more completely rounded heads with no chin. And no more begging people to give it a like and redraw it anyway. And I’ll really, truly, fully belong here.
Just two weeks.

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  • In a way I think you’ve always belonged here though, I mean yeah, you weren’t able to post, but so more and more people are getting denied that too Both sucks Anyway I’m really exited to see art from hou

  • The countdown begins

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Ok ok ok
I know that colleges have you take sexual assault prevention quizzes for safety and all.
But
A KID LIKE ME CAN’T EVEN THINK ABOUT BAD SITUATIONS LIKE THAT WITHOUT WANTING TO HIDE AWAY FROM THE WORLD FOREVER!!! I MEAN COME ON IT WAS SO SCARY AND DESCRIPTIVE AND IT JUST PUT ME INTO MY “men are bad” STIGMA AGAIN
DISMDJEMDJd
Sorry...
I just can’t stand it sometimes and it’s shoved in my face and then I feel bad about being a guy again and then I start crying and there’s this whole thing.
...
Sorry; I just needed to not die and burst out for a minute...

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  • > Jeffy I get it. I’m sorry you have these problems though. 💚

  • > RightsNighty I know, it’s just... Hard I guess... not to beat myself up...

  • I’m sorry, but you know what? The best thing you possibly could have done was take the quiz and obviously you seem to have thought about it well. Some boys don’t really pay attention and that’s the problem. You’re not going to do things, that’s good, so don’t beat yourself up over what it was deigned to stop.

  • It's ok not all of us do

AUUUGHTUVJJFNXSK

Ok ok ok
I know that colleges have you take sexual assault prevention quizzes for safety and all.
But
A KID LIKE ME CAN’T EVEN THINK ABOUT BAD SITUATIONS LIKE THAT WITHOUT WANTING TO HIDE AWAY FROM THE WORLD FOREVER!!! I MEAN COME ON IT WAS SO SCARY AND DESCRIPTIVE AND IT JUST PUT ME INTO MY “men are bad” STIGMA AGAIN
DISMDJEMDJd
Sorry...
I just can’t stand it sometimes and it’s shoved in my face and then I feel bad about being a guy again and then I start crying and there’s this whole thing.
...
Sorry; I just needed to not die and burst out for a minute...

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  • > Jeffy I get it. I’m sorry you have these problems though. 💚

  • > RightsNighty I know, it’s just... Hard I guess... not to beat myself up...

  • I’m sorry, but you know what? The best thing you possibly could have done was take the quiz and obviously you seem to have thought about it well. Some boys don’t really pay attention and that’s the problem. You’re not going to do things, that’s good, so don’t beat yourself up over what it was deigned to stop.

  • It's ok not all of us do

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😕

The closer the day comes that I leave for college, the less I can enjoy myself in my parent’s house.
I’m finding that when I’m not playing video games or playing with plushies and action figs there’s nothing else that really gives me pleasure anymore. I think I’m turning into a boring adult.

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  • > RightsNighty I do sing still, yes, it’s just I haven’t performed in a long time. And I do write songs, or try to anyway, but it’s very hard not to write about love and when I do it just reminds me I’m alone and then I scrap the song because it makes me sad.

  • Well, do you still sing? That was a hobby do yours correct? Do you write songs?

  • > Sphynia-Cat I’ve made it my mission to remain childish

  • You're not it might just be jitters and fears of moving on. But I believe in you. Just cause you're moving on does not mean you have to become a "boring adult". Dude I'm 19 and I still act childish. Boring adults are office workers. Not all adults have to be boring.

Jeffuri-san left a comment!

😕

The closer the day comes that I leave for college, the less I can enjoy myself in my parent’s house.
I’m finding that when I’m not playing video games or playing with plushies and action figs there’s nothing else that really gives me pleasure anymore. I think I’m turning into a boring adult.

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  • > RightsNighty I do sing still, yes, it’s just I haven’t performed in a long time. And I do write songs, or try to anyway, but it’s very hard not to write about love and when I do it just reminds me I’m alone and then I scrap the song because it makes me sad.

  • Well, do you still sing? That was a hobby do yours correct? Do you write songs?

  • > Sphynia-Cat I’ve made it my mission to remain childish

  • You're not it might just be jitters and fears of moving on. But I believe in you. Just cause you're moving on does not mean you have to become a "boring adult". Dude I'm 19 and I still act childish. Boring adults are office workers. Not all adults have to be boring.

😕

The closer the day comes that I leave for college, the less I can enjoy myself in my parent’s house.
I’m finding that when I’m not playing video games or playing with plushies and action figs there’s nothing else that really gives me pleasure anymore. I think I’m turning into a boring adult.

Read more

  • > RightsNighty I do sing still, yes, it’s just I haven’t performed in a long time. And I do write songs, or try to anyway, but it’s very hard not to write about love and when I do it just reminds me I’m alone and then I scrap the song because it makes me sad.

  • Well, do you still sing? That was a hobby do yours correct? Do you write songs?

  • > Sphynia-Cat I’ve made it my mission to remain childish

  • You're not it might just be jitters and fears of moving on. But I believe in you. Just cause you're moving on does not mean you have to become a "boring adult". Dude I'm 19 and I still act childish. Boring adults are office workers. Not all adults have to be boring.

Jeffuri-san left a comment!

Can I... talk for a minute?

I’m scared.
About my future.
I know I said I wasn’t scared anymore, but I am again.
The main reason is I’m terrified of telling my family I’m an atheist. They’ll likely hate me forever.
Another reason is finding the right girl. First of all, not a lot of girls take pride in being big and fat, and sadly that’s something I have to have in my women in order to fully be in love with them (that isn’t to say I hate skinny girls, I just don’t like them romantically. I know that’s kinky, but I CANNOT HELP IT). And I don’t understand the “woman language” (what I mean by that is that I don’t get the social cues most of them expect men to understand. For example, say a couple is in a store and the girl says “you don’t have to get me anything” in which case she may expect the guy to get her something anyway). I need to be told exactly what you mean, or what you want, otherwise I don’t know to do it! If she wants babies or wants sexual intimacy or wants me to touch her or something she HAS TO TELL ME IN ORDER FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!
And having Beatrice in my head has really done a number on my love scope, too. I mean, I’m trying so hard to not narrow standards down to all her features, but it’s so hard!!!!
And i hate being tall. I want to be shorter than the girl. I want to be the shorter and submissive one. I don’t like it when the guy is taller. And yet I’m like 5’10” so the odds aren’t in my favor.
Third reason is, yep you guessed it, struggling with my “men are bad” mindset.
Geez, what’s wrong with me?! I’m so different it’s going to get me in trouble.

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  • > RightsNighty I appreciate your prayers. And I will talk to you.

  • I know it’s ironic, you being an atheist and me being a Calvinist, but; well, I’ll be praying for you. If you need anything I am here as well. I’m so sorry this is happening, just pls promise me you’ll let me know if you need anything

  • Oh I hope you can find someone

  • > CoffeeGhost Well yeah, I’m just scared to actually do it...

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Also ( a wee debate of mine with a kid)

Kid (and one I desperately want to educate) at church: Ky why when you draw men do they look like rly feminine and when you draw men they look really masculine? You support transgenders! *points finger at me*
Me: ok first of all, that’s my style, and not even my choice. Second, I get neutrality is a myth (a phrase Calvinist kids know quite well lol) but i am close to such a myth with transgenders.
Kid: well- OK THEN! Clearly you’re for gays
Me: Suck it up kid. Truth is gays and lesbians tend to have happier marriages then most “normal” couples, and divorce is just as much a sin in your worldview but I don’t see that being protested now do I?
Kid:...
Me: oh and also there are only two mentions of homosexuality in the Bible, one of them being at the city of Sodom where for all we know it could have just been the fact they wanted to screw the angels, plus Lot offered his women to be raped which is just as much a horrid thing to you correct? Second-
Kid: No Kyyyy rape isn’t a sin and even if it is it’s better than homosexuality
Me: completely stunned at the fact this stupid kid just played the card. Which card is that? The card he doesn’t get in trouble ever because he’s the pastor’s nephew.

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About my profile name...

There’s something I want you guys to know. I’m going to get a little personal here, just for a minute. “Jeffy” happens to be a very, very, very special nickname of mine. I’m only called this by my closest friends and family (only two family members call me by that name). It’s a nickname I hate people who aren’t close to me using. It’s a nickname I would entrust to my girlfriend, if I ever have one. And...
It’s a nickname I decided to let you guys know about. Because you’re that important to me.
Sorry for spam, I just thought I’d say that.

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  • This is very great TED talk today 👍👍👍

  • 💝💘❣️💓💕💕💖💞💞♥️💟❤️🖤💜💙🧡❤️

  • Thank you so much for sharing this with us then! You know we are always here for you, and honestly I’m happy you fell comfortable enough here 😁

Jeffuri-san left a comment!

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Can I... talk for a minute?

I’m scared.
About my future.
I know I said I wasn’t scared anymore, but I am again.
The main reason is I’m terrified of telling my family I’m an atheist. They’ll likely hate me forever.
Another reason is finding the right girl. First of all, not a lot of girls take pride in being big and fat, and sadly that’s something I have to have in my women in order to fully be in love with them (that isn’t to say I hate skinny girls, I just don’t like them romantically. I know that’s kinky, but I CANNOT HELP IT). And I don’t understand the “woman language” (what I mean by that is that I don’t get the social cues most of them expect men to understand. For example, say a couple is in a store and the girl says “you don’t have to get me anything” in which case she may expect the guy to get her something anyway). I need to be told exactly what you mean, or what you want, otherwise I don’t know to do it! If she wants babies or wants sexual intimacy or wants me to touch her or something she HAS TO TELL ME IN ORDER FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!
And having Beatrice in my head has really done a number on my love scope, too. I mean, I’m trying so hard to not narrow standards down to all her features, but it’s so hard!!!!
And i hate being tall. I want to be shorter than the girl. I want to be the shorter and submissive one. I don’t like it when the guy is taller. And yet I’m like 5’10” so the odds aren’t in my favor.
Third reason is, yep you guessed it, struggling with my “men are bad” mindset.
Geez, what’s wrong with me?! I’m so different it’s going to get me in trouble.

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  • > RightsNighty I appreciate your prayers. And I will talk to you.

  • I know it’s ironic, you being an atheist and me being a Calvinist, but; well, I’ll be praying for you. If you need anything I am here as well. I’m so sorry this is happening, just pls promise me you’ll let me know if you need anything

  • Oh I hope you can find someone

  • > CoffeeGhost Well yeah, I’m just scared to actually do it...

Can I... talk for a minute?

I’m scared.
About my future.
I know I said I wasn’t scared anymore, but I am again.
The main reason is I’m terrified of telling my family I’m an atheist. They’ll likely hate me forever.
Another reason is finding the right girl. First of all, not a lot of girls take pride in being big and fat, and sadly that’s something I have to have in my women in order to fully be in love with them (that isn’t to say I hate skinny girls, I just don’t like them romantically. I know that’s kinky, but I CANNOT HELP IT). And I don’t understand the “woman language” (what I mean by that is that I don’t get the social cues most of them expect men to understand. For example, say a couple is in a store and the girl says “you don’t have to get me anything” in which case she may expect the guy to get her something anyway). I need to be told exactly what you mean, or what you want, otherwise I don’t know to do it! If she wants babies or wants sexual intimacy or wants me to touch her or something she HAS TO TELL ME IN ORDER FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!
And having Beatrice in my head has really done a number on my love scope, too. I mean, I’m trying so hard to not narrow standards down to all her features, but it’s so hard!!!!
And i hate being tall. I want to be shorter than the girl. I want to be the shorter and submissive one. I don’t like it when the guy is taller. And yet I’m like 5’10” so the odds aren’t in my favor.
Third reason is, yep you guessed it, struggling with my “men are bad” mindset.
Geez, what’s wrong with me?! I’m so different it’s going to get me in trouble.

Read more

  • > RightsNighty I appreciate your prayers. And I will talk to you.

  • I know it’s ironic, you being an atheist and me being a Calvinist, but; well, I’ll be praying for you. If you need anything I am here as well. I’m so sorry this is happening, just pls promise me you’ll let me know if you need anything

  • Oh I hope you can find someone

  • > CoffeeGhost Well yeah, I’m just scared to actually do it...

Jeffuri-san left a comment!

Funny thing...

Funny thing that my parents are highly convinced I’m ever coming back once I leave.
“We can give you pointers when you come back for the holidays!”
“Between semesters, you’ll be able to come back and figure out what you want to do next!”
“You don’t have to take EVERYTHING... we’ll store some stuff for you for when you come back!”
“Once you start getting ready for your mission we can get ready for you to come back!”
Ha ha ha yeah you think so, huh?! well guess what, I’m never ever coming back because I’m leaving you forever and ever and never calling you ever again. Guess I’m going to have to choose some things that I can’t take with me if I can’t take it all with me. Holidays are becoming worthless to me anyways. What makes them think I’d EVER come back? They’re the reason I’m always upset and emotionally unstable. I don’t even have the maturity of an adult at my age, because it’s been shattered.
So the plan?
Leave and never ever ever ever ever ever ever come back. Ever. I’m going to say Goodbye forever.
What next then?
I don’t know, at one point I planned to just get lethal injection, since I didn’t really think I had a plan for my life. Obviously that’s not something people would want me to do.
Whatever, the important thing is I’ll be gone forever.

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  • Please don’t, you and your life are both really important You mean a lot to me, I know we don’t know each other that whole but still, and it hurts to see you talk about your future this way

  • :((

  • I’ve decided swearing doesn’t even help me vent anymore.

Funny thing...

Funny thing that my parents are highly convinced I’m ever coming back once I leave.
“We can give you pointers when you come back for the holidays!”
“Between semesters, you’ll be able to come back and figure out what you want to do next!”
“You don’t have to take EVERYTHING... we’ll store some stuff for you for when you come back!”
“Once you start getting ready for your mission we can get ready for you to come back!”
Ha ha ha yeah you think so, huh?! well guess what, I’m never ever coming back because I’m leaving you forever and ever and never calling you ever again. Guess I’m going to have to choose some things that I can’t take with me if I can’t take it all with me. Holidays are becoming worthless to me anyways. What makes them think I’d EVER come back? They’re the reason I’m always upset and emotionally unstable. I don’t even have the maturity of an adult at my age, because it’s been shattered.
So the plan?
Leave and never ever ever ever ever ever ever come back. Ever. I’m going to say Goodbye forever.
What next then?
I don’t know, at one point I planned to just get lethal injection, since I didn’t really think I had a plan for my life. Obviously that’s not something people would want me to do.
Whatever, the important thing is I’ll be gone forever.

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  • Please don’t, you and your life are both really important You mean a lot to me, I know we don’t know each other that whole but still, and it hurts to see you talk about your future this way

  • :((

  • I’ve decided swearing doesn’t even help me vent anymore.