If you're for some reason checking my account, please, please just stop trying to fuck with my life. I don't understand why you can't just leave it be, you're the one that ended things. I'm moving on with my life, so why are you still holding onto it when you ended things? Please just stop trying to fuck with me. I expected so much better from you, I always put in so much effort to be the best I could be for you, always facilitated communication, always and constantly checked for your comfort. I did my very best and I just want to get on with life after all of that has been thrown away. Please stop. Please. I've been raising them since they were ten, and now suddenly you're acting like it's weird for me to still be in contact with them? Really? When I was the one talking them through mental health shit that no one else would take seriously? When I was the one giving them advice and care and attention? They're like my fucking child, please just stop. I didn't ask for this, I didn't ask for any of this. I just want peace. If you have any ounce of care left for me, please just stop. It's done, we don't talk, you don't have to deal with me at all. Just stop thinking about me please. I've stopped thinking about you outside of when you weaponize my insecurities and trauma. Please just let us fully go our separate ways and stop dealing with this. For both of our sakes. Please.

TW// Vent, cursing

So fucking done with my dad, he keeps trying to get me to work out w/ him in the mornings, I keep telling him no cause I’m not embarrassing myself in front of him cause he mocks and picks on me, when I talked to him bout it, he says he might “tease” me once in awhile but he doesn’t do anything bad, BITCH TF YOU DO, YOY MOCK AND MAKE FUN OF ME EVERY TIME I FUCK SOMETHIN UP OR DO ANYTHING YOU CAN PICK ON ME FOR, HE LITERALLY CALLS ME FU KING CHEWBACA WHEN I DON’T SHAVE FOR A FEW DAYS, HE’S ALREADY HELLA TRANSPHOBIC AND HOMOPHOBIC TOWARDS ME, BUT TF YOU MEAN YOU DONT PICK ON ME, YOU NIT PICK EVERYTHING WHEN I DONT DO IT THE WAY YOU DO IT, SAYIN IT’LL KEEP ME ACTUVE MY ASS, IMMA DOIN A FUCKIN SOCCER CAMP THING EVERY EVENING FOR TWO HOURS THIS SUMMER I’M NOT JUST SITTIN ON MY ASS, I CAN WORK OUT W/ AND AROUND MY MOM CAUSE SHE DON’T DO THAT SHIT, AND HE HAD THE GUTS TO SAY THAT I’M BEING “OVERSENSITIVE” BOUT IT?! YEAH MOTHER FUCKE, I’M A AUTISTIC, CLOSETED TRANS TEEN WHO ALREADY HAS LOW SELF-ESTEEM AND FUCKING ISSUES WITH THE WAY I LOOK EVERYDAY, EVEN IN MY OWN FUCKING HOME, WITH BULLYING AT SCHOOL AND SHIT, JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

TW// Vent, cursing

So fucking done with my dad, he keeps trying to get me to work out w/ him in the mornings, I keep telling him no cause I’m not embarrassing myself in front of him cause he mocks and picks on me, when I talked to him bout it, he says he might “tease” me once in awhile but he doesn’t do anything bad, BITCH TF YOU DO, YOY MOCK AND MAKE FUN OF ME EVERY TIME I FUCK SOMETHIN UP OR DO ANYTHING YOU CAN PICK ON ME FOR, HE LITERALLY CALLS ME FU KING CHEWBACA WHEN I DON’T SHAVE FOR A FEW DAYS, HE’S ALREADY HELLA TRANSPHOBIC AND HOMOPHOBIC TOWARDS ME, BUT TF YOU MEAN YOU DONT PICK ON ME, YOU NIT PICK EVERYTHING WHEN I DONT DO IT THE WAY YOU DO IT, SAYIN IT’LL KEEP ME ACTUVE MY ASS, IMMA DOIN A FUCKIN SOCCER CAMP THING EVERY EVENING FOR TWO HOURS THIS SUMMER I’M NOT JUST SITTIN ON MY ASS, I CAN WORK OUT W/ AND AROUND MY MOM CAUSE SHE DON’T DO THAT SHIT, AND HE HAD THE GUTS TO SAY THAT I’M BEING “OVERSENSITIVE” BOUT IT?! YEAH MOTHER FUCKE, I’M A AUTISTIC, CLOSETED TRANS TEEN WHO ALREADY HAS LOW SELF-ESTEEM AND FUCKING ISSUES WITH THE WAY I LOOK EVERYDAY, EVEN IN MY OWN FUCKING HOME, WITH BULLYING AT SCHOOL AND SHIT, JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

Don’t worry. My old crush is still bugging me because now he’s jealous that I’m hanging out with a guy 🙄 like bro get over it. You made your choice.

Don’t worry. My old crush is still bugging me because now he’s jealous that I’m hanging out with a guy 🙄 like bro get over it. You made your choice.

Code Blue StarCross doctors 👌
Orion, Oliver and Crucifix 👍

Don’t worry. My old crush is still bugging me because now he’s jealous that I’m hanging out with a guy 🙄 like bro get over it. You made your choice.

TW: embarrassing cringy stuff

Here is a small anecdote i had at school:



Why i am so naive?? im so naive bro. Today at class, some of my classmates told me that one of the guys on my class loved me, (that was a trick, it's not true lol) he gave me a little note that said "i love you" at first, I believed that it was legitimate, and i was shocked, but a little thought popped into my head: "you are so young for having a bf, plus they are laughing a lot, do you think it's true??" I ignored it 😭

In Spanish class, i drew him a portrait of himself that i gave him in PE class, he liked it, and that made me more confident, i was in an extremely happy mood so i did not listen to the thought...

at the last hour, when we finished school for the week, he called me to tell me something important. I was so nervous.. but the plot twist comes here:

they trolled me!!! They all laughed at me and he said it was a joke, i called him traitor. But then he laughed at that. I haven't been sad though, i took it as a simple joke, because that happened to me before xD then he said that we would still be friends,

Like actually, why im so ignorant and naive? And why did i act like "OMG I HAVE A BF AAAAA ☺️☺️"

after that, he ran away with his friend

be back on Monday?

Can i vent to someone

IT'S THE 18TH ANNIVERSARY OF MY RELEASE DATE LETS GOOOOOOOO

don't worry I still have a few days
I'm just preparing :p

There’s supposed to be a school shooting today, so far we’re good, YIPEE MORE POLICE!! I WANNA SHAKE THEIR HANDS AND RIDE IN THEIR CAR 😭 also i woke up late because i think my ringer is broken, woke up when school started and got there… HAHA I DONT GET A TARDIE?? I will cry if i do… 🧍‍♂️ woohoo!!

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i'm not doing too hot right now. cause committing sounds so easy and nice right now. I'm scared I'm going to do something I'll regret. I hate when i get like this. i really hate it. cause i feel helpless and crying. sorry if i've annoyed you.

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i'm not doing too hot right now. cause committing sounds so easy and nice right now. I'm scared I'm going to do something I'll regret. I hate when i get like this. i really hate it. cause i feel helpless and crying. sorry if i've annoyed you.

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i'm not doing too hot right now. cause committing sounds so easy and nice right now. I'm scared I'm going to do something I'll regret. I hate when i get like this. i really hate it. cause i feel helpless and crying. sorry if i've annoyed you.

I feel old

My short break is almost over
.o. (Do not ignore)




What did i do when i was absent? I played my favorite video game, Super Mario Bros Wii, i watched a tv show, i played my sports etc. I missed you a lot, i saw when you had a lot of fun on this site while i wasn't there... i feel kinda guilty for not socializing with you.. my moots here don't interact much with me, i don't usually post stuff on here as i did in the past. Sorry for my absence :')
Thanks for your support

I feel old

I feel old

:((
I miss some friends who don't interact much w me, and i feel lonely in this crowd

:((
I miss some friends who don't interact much w me, and i feel lonely in this crowd

Please read! It's important
👀


I have to study more for my exams because our math teacher is disappointed with our work at class, i will focus at maths more than other subject because my marks are lowering ;0; i will do the same for other subjects that i have low marks on

Sorry for the lack of posting, my stylus is dead and i don't feel like drawing anything, sorry for the people i owe art to for my arts taking too long to get done because personal issues are so hard to deal with 😔 and motivation isn't in my mind sometimes and that's another reason why i don't draw much these days

Also my parents aren't happy to see me with the tablet so much time and they want me to take a break from it, so, yeah, anyway here's all my story

Instead i will be doing other stuff, like drawing traditionally, playing with my toys, my wii console, and not checking social media as i did past days. i just want to take a little time for myself and doing healthy stuff

That's all, i hope you understand! :')

Bruh I can’t tell you how freakin mad I got yesterday-
Alright….soooo (girl topic tw warning if there are any guys here who get grossed out 🙄)

(LAST CHANCE WARNING BOYS!)



I’m on my period. Normal girl thing right. Well some friends of ours planned a hike up in Yosemite yesterday. It was supposed to only be a 1 hour and 30 minute drive. 4 hours later and we’re still driving. I was finally starting to get pissed off about it because I’m now starting to hurt because I’VE BEEN SITTING FOR SO DAMN LONG! I’m also stuck in the back seat of the car with my annoying freakin little sister. I have plans with my best friend next week, and my grandma is making over a 9 HOUR DRIVE FROM ARIZONA this upcoming Saturday to come see us. I read text messages between my mom and the people we went with and found out on Friday that ALL OF THEIR DAMN KIDS ARE SICK!!!!! BRUHHHHHHHHH!!!! So I didn’t want to go but my parents forced me to. The only other reason I agreed to go is because it wasn’t supposed to be a long drive which means the elevation wouldn’t be too high because I HAVE EXTREMELY BAD LUNGS!!!!!! We ended up stopping for a bathroom break and when I get out of the car I realized I couldn’t breathe. So after I was done using the restroom I asked my dad about how much longer we have to drive. if we were going any higher up the mountain I would’ve literally walked home myself. He looks at me and says “be quiet and don’t be annoying.” BISH WHAT!!??? So the family who planned it was trying to talk to me I guess but I couldn’t hear them because I CAN’T BREATHE!!!! The wife asked me if I was ok and I looked at her and looked at my dad and tried saying “I can’t breathe.” But nothing came out BECAUSE I HAVE NO FREAKIN DAMN AIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I sat in the car and took my inhaler. We eventually get to half dome and we get out to stretch our legs. I’m literally getting my stuff and I’m about to get out of the car when my dad walks over and slaps my knee (I had jeans on so it didn’t hurt but I’m freaking emotional because I can’t breathe AND I’M ON MY PERIOD!!!) and tells me “watch your damn attitude. They were trying to talk to you and you just walked away.” Bruh when I tell you I was ready to just jump off that damn cliff 😑 LIKE BRUHHH HOW ABOUT YOU PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR KID AND TRY TO MAKE OUT WHAT I WAS TRYING TO TELL YOU!!!??? WHOS THE ONE WITH THE ATTITUDE NOW HUH!!!????? So, I start crying and I’m trying to tell my dad that I wasn’t trying to be rude but I JUST COULDN’T BREATHE!!! But now he’s getting even more mad at me for crying and won’t even listen to what I’m trying to say. So my mom comes over and I tell her what happened and how I couldn’t breathe. She does some breathing exercises with me and I finally get out of the car. My friend comes over to talk to me and I can’t say anything yet because I’m still trying to regulate my breathing so my mom tells them how I couldn’t breathe and then my dad finally tries to back me up and tell them how my lungs keep getting worse. Oh how I would’ve loved to throw a rock at him right then and there 🙂

my fianceé 💕💕

Bruh I can’t tell you how freakin mad I got yesterday-
Alright….soooo (girl topic tw warning if there are any guys here who get grossed out 🙄)

(LAST CHANCE WARNING BOYS!)



I’m on my period. Normal girl thing right. Well some friends of ours planned a hike up in Yosemite yesterday. It was supposed to only be a 1 hour and 30 minute drive. 4 hours later and we’re still driving. I was finally starting to get pissed off about it because I’m now starting to hurt because I’VE BEEN SITTING FOR SO DAMN LONG! I’m also stuck in the back seat of the car with my annoying freakin little sister. I have plans with my best friend next week, and my grandma is making over a 9 HOUR DRIVE FROM ARIZONA this upcoming Saturday to come see us. I read text messages between my mom and the people we went with and found out on Friday that ALL OF THEIR DAMN KIDS ARE SICK!!!!! BRUHHHHHHHHH!!!! So I didn’t want to go but my parents forced me to. The only other reason I agreed to go is because it wasn’t supposed to be a long drive which means the elevation wouldn’t be too high because I HAVE EXTREMELY BAD LUNGS!!!!!! We ended up stopping for a bathroom break and when I get out of the car I realized I couldn’t breathe. So after I was done using the restroom I asked my dad about how much longer we have to drive. if we were going any higher up the mountain I would’ve literally walked home myself. He looks at me and says “be quiet and don’t be annoying.” BISH WHAT!!??? So the family who planned it was trying to talk to me I guess but I couldn’t hear them because I CAN’T BREATHE!!!! The wife asked me if I was ok and I looked at her and looked at my dad and tried saying “I can’t breathe.” But nothing came out BECAUSE I HAVE NO FREAKIN DAMN AIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I sat in the car and took my inhaler. We eventually get to half dome and we get out to stretch our legs. I’m literally getting my stuff and I’m about to get out of the car when my dad walks over and slaps my knee (I had jeans on so it didn’t hurt but I’m freaking emotional because I can’t breathe AND I’M ON MY PERIOD!!!) and tells me “watch your damn attitude. They were trying to talk to you and you just walked away.” Bruh when I tell you I was ready to just jump off that damn cliff 😑 LIKE BRUHHH HOW ABOUT YOU PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR KID AND TRY TO MAKE OUT WHAT I WAS TRYING TO TELL YOU!!!??? WHOS THE ONE WITH THE ATTITUDE NOW HUH!!!????? So, I start crying and I’m trying to tell my dad that I wasn’t trying to be rude but I JUST COULDN’T BREATHE!!! But now he’s getting even more mad at me for crying and won’t even listen to what I’m trying to say. So my mom comes over and I tell her what happened and how I couldn’t breathe. She does some breathing exercises with me and I finally get out of the car. My friend comes over to talk to me and I can’t say anything yet because I’m still trying to regulate my breathing so my mom tells them how I couldn’t breathe and then my dad finally tries to back me up and tell them how my lungs keep getting worse. Oh how I would’ve loved to throw a rock at him right then and there 🙂